This weekend, something has awakened inside of me. This weekend I have lost my fear. I have fasted and been patient- I have enjoyed the company of my friends and enhanced in their sadness, their happiness, their contributions to the feeling of “whole”. I have seen human nature and kept to myself. I know that throughout all suffering I always have the peace of myself to return to, the inner quiet that speaks to me at night and envelopes me and tells me it will all be okay. There is beauty in the system, the system that lacks courage and strength, where cowards reside, there is also fault. Excellence and prodigious truth lie within nature, tranquility, the placidity and enjoyment of pedestrian life. Over complication does nothing to enhance life or living, and the creation of problematic situations is meaningless in any circumstance. To live and live in the lives of others is where true value lies, and I am settled, I am content.

Sleep falls over me** like a shade coming down a window, falling delicately, the presence of light no more than a mere disillusionment of sore eyes, with the validity of reality losing importance my thoughts travel in the direction of the unknown; however, what is the unknown but what has yet to be created, sculpted, conditioned into a mad, mindless fiend? or perhaps a warm, enveloping pair of arms ready to engulf me into a hug? I am falling, rising, ascending, drifting, all at once yet I am ever present between my sheets that are smoother than velour. There is no finish and there is no beginning. My days are drawn out dreams, and exhausted at the end of them I relax in order to embark on adventures I remain incapable of, rendered motionless, I enter my true reality.

A voice says your name in my head
Strong and sharp, pronounced and definite
Your name lies within my heart, within my soul
You and I plus all the stars and the sky
Are beyond what is infinite
We keep the city bustling at night
Our love can power an entire town
With passion so intense, it could devastate a country
and intimacy so raw and pure, it could blind millions
There is only one way to live
in
Life,
and I’ll tell you by pressing my lips unto yours
The ecstasy of our shared bodies
Rides upon everything I see, touch, think, or feel
My lips show the marks of my teeth biting
Down because of all the things I hold
Back from you and do not say
Hoping that with every shared kiss my
Thoughts will be poured onto yours
And I will never have to say the things
That I want to say to you
because
They will scare you (they already have)
And I want to hold you close to me
Without exposing the way
I feel

Please, please know that I
Only care to feel the shape of your body with my fingertips
and to see
that you feel the
same

Within 2 months, I know your body like I know how to ride my bicycle and
Punks like us don’t love often
Punks like us rebel
Punks like us
And darling, I repel all forces, but you’re one force I can’t rebel
Brilliance when I see you

Our love can fill all the empty space around the galaxy
And I orbit you, like two planets that can’t get enough of each other,
Orbit you like I was born to love you
Born to know you in and out
Know your love like the alphabet that floats around in this soup
And I love you.

i wanted you more than the power of a natural disaster ravaging entire continents

“yes”

within milliseconds i was sent to pure ecstasy, a state of delirium, passion, mania, vehemence with our every shared breath in the ardor of our movements- the voracity i felt to induce pleasure upon you was boundless, is boundless

the fervor of our bodies shimmered in streetlight illuminated glazes, and our flickering eyes shimmered with careless impetuosity for anything but inducing pleasure on one another

the absolute delight that comes with inhabiting your existence is ample for my eternal contentment

your beauty captures me,
beauty like yours resembles the feeling of relief,
the feeling preceding extreme pain
when your body sends out a warm embrace throughout your body
like a comforting hug from mother nature to ensure you
that you are still alive,
the pain is gone,
and you are still breathing

your beauty is warm
and envelopes me whenever your benign eyes glance in my direction
grasping around my body and then you blink,
blink,
blink

i tear through time,
lacerate every last second that holds us from each other
there is not anything that holds me from you but wasted time, corroding away and creating a gap in time in which i am once again in your presence.

all i ask from you is your lips holding onto mine, and for the seconds that i experience you to drag out across days and days.

HOLY
THE FIRST TIME WE KISSED
HOLY
THE SKIN ON YOUR BACK
HOLY
OUR VEHEMENT PASSION
HOLY
CARESSING YOUR FACE IN THE BACKSEAT OF YOUR CAR


HOLY
THE ADDICTION WE SHARE
KISSING YOUR LIPS

HOLY*

THERE IS NO HOLY

THERE IS ONLY YOU & I

STANDING HERE NAKED

STANDING HERE WITHOUT YOU

THERE IS NO HOLY

I don’t like my name but I love the way it sounds next to yours. There are billions of things I’ll never understand, like the time, and space, and why I love you as much as I do. I may not understand much, but the way your lips move when you say my name, darling that solves all of nature’s and man’s mysteries combined.

If I could still shut my eyes tight in a stroller
gliding through an amusement park,
with the belief that death won’t ever lay a cruel finger on me,

If I could only see the way your words twirl in the air,
complement mine over the satellite waves of our hearts
When we speak, our words collide and dance, and billions of atoms split into two.

You are the goal I’m trying to reach,
all I want to sense and suffer through
The world surrounds us with it’s restless prying
I am joyed with you beside me, I feel right, I feel glory


Romulus is the son of Mars,
you’re beautiful

unfinished

Our souls will dance for all the times our bodies didn’t
Teeth leaving unfelt wounds upon the lips and tongues of mouths that will never
speak the words I am dying to say
Diction that travels in sound waves that will never pass your ears

i am bursting at the seams with trying to say i love you

i spell i l-o-v-e y-o-u wherever i go

i write down small i love yous on every paper that passes me

and every surface i come in contact to

so that maybe the message will travel those 365 miles

and you will know that i love you

because i just can’t say it

and my lips are lacerated with holding in all the times i wanted to tell you what i simply could not

my knuckles have been cracked one too many times

and small teeth marks on my tongue show the words i am not able to say

i love you it spells out distinctly on my skin

on my homework

on the backs of credit card bills and on foggy car door windows

i love you

and i can tell the entire world

but i can’t tell you