Slowly losing hope
Don't want to live today
Don't want to feel the pain
and ever feel this way.
Trying hard to fight
To maybe live again
And never be the burden
Of someone who seeks the end.
Broken and defeated
So difficult to breathe
Holding on to what I have
As my heart constantly bleeds.
Tired, so very tired
no hope for me to see
I'm tired of being who I am
this life is cruel to me.
Each day is very challenging
to just get out of bed
Struggling with self-loathing thoughts
constantly wishing I was dead.

Life leads us through journeys
and pathways we'd never see-
Preferences we never fathom
are adored unexpectedly.
The days we never saw coming
a stranger became a friend-
Then grew into infatuation
never thought to love again.
The treasure life has brought us
and risks we both take-
To unexpectedly be together
a secret but not a mistake.
Unanticipated moments
created a love so strong-
Throughout this journey together
feels so right and never wrong.
Life never works the way as planned
changes along the way-
Old habits to new beginnings
to be together soon one day.

Moments of great happiness
each day felt so bright-
Each second was so perfect
a change that felt so right.

A sudden shift into silence
to distance from the heart-
No words of explanations
of why the coldness start.

Convinced that things were perfect
the building of anew-
Days of unending happiness
now feels unreal, untrue.

Days believing it was real love
blinded and did not see-
Fooled by the possibilities
of what could one day be.

It began with just a crush
then the feelings slowly grew-
Evolved into infatuation
after many months with you.

Unexpectedly you stole my heart
and these feelings grew more-
From butterflies in my stomach
to someone that I adore.

Confronted by these feelings
Is true or a fantasy?
Are you the one my heart is longing?
Do you truly belong with me?

I can't define what I am feeling
or am I scared to actually say-
To admit what I truly feel for you
and if you'll go or will you stay?

Way deep inside is a feeling
a feeling I know is true-
Such complete and true happiness
and this forbidden love for you.

A feeling unexplainable
a sudden warmth inside my heart-
A realization of reality
discovered when we we're apart.
My mind is constantly replaying
this feeling rushed inside-
The moment of confirmation
who my heart has helped decide.
That moment he held me in his arms
I held him in mine real tight-
My heart felt a sudden warming rush
affirming that this is right.
My mind is spinning so differently
can't explain what my heart feels-
Through hours passed I realized
these feelings are truly real.
Remembering the moment of yesterday
that I can't stop thinking of-
My heart has found the truth inside
that it's him I truly love.

What started as infatuation
unexpectedly grew strong-
My mind overwhelmed with love
I no longer feel is wrong.

My days are so much brighter
and happiness filled inside-
No longer want us to be a secret-
no longer want to hide.

The missing pieces rediscovered
and the path is clear to see-
This life now feels complete
with you here next to me.

Beginning a new chapter
as this love feels so true-
Accepting this new reality
that my heart belongs to you.