So many days without you
and this I want to say-
I miss you so much, my secret love
I've missed you everyday.

Remembering your arms around me
and that smile on your face-
The giddiness before our goodbyes
and the warmth in your embrace.

The many days that's passed us
it is you I've been thinking of-
Until the day we meet again-
I'll miss you so, my secret love.

A day that would seem so happy
made a change for the worse-
Turned the days back into gray skies
for that day became a curse.

The quietness increases
the coldness grows inside-
The happiness is diminishing
and the pain can't seem to hide.

The obvious, but subtle changes
that soon you'll go away-
Those days are now just memories
of what we had yesterday.

Trying to comprehend these feelings
that are building inside of me-
Trying to determine it's true meaning
is this love meant to be?
Trying to find the answers
before I fall apart-
Trying to find the missing pieces
of the puzzle in my heart.
Trying to solve this mystery
of how he feels inside-
Trying to understand his loving heart
so he no longer has to hide.
Trying to comprehend this life
that we both began together-
Trying to determine if we're meant to be
Always or never?

My mind is preoccupied
with many thoughts of you-
The laughter and the happiness
everything that we've been through.

Life feels so very different
much happier and bright-
These feelings, though forbidden
feels so real and so right.

My heart has never felt this way
a love so deep inside-
My heart aches that in reality
our love we're forced to hide.

Our memories replaying
our days alone I won't forget-
Our love that has grown each day
will remain our secret.

Every day I'm contemplating
Trying to understand-
Deciding my next direction
of what my heart demands.

Every day is getting harder
as these feelings are growing strong-
My heart has finally decided
where I truly belong.

Every day I can't stop thinking
just how my life would be-
To finally be who I truly am
to finally be free.

My heart is telling me
That you are slipping away-
The days we were once happy
Is no longer the same way.

Is it my imagination
Overwhelmed by my heart-
Are there really changes?
Are we slowly breaking a part?

The days seem darker
Seems colder to bear-
The happiness has faded
And the sadness is everwhere.

The tears are slowly falling
And my heart begins to ache-
These days are no longer worth it
So much I can only take.

It feels like forever
Laughter overwhelmed each day-
Our love seemed so unbreakable
Unending and always.

The memories begin to fade-
And the wound is hard to mend
Our togetherness seemed like a dream
That suddenly came to an end.

Those moments fading slowly
Far away from yesterday-
When days were always brighter-
Laughter everyday.

This distance slowly growing
And the smiles seem less-
The days now are more quiet-
More quiet than the rest.

The unending happiness
Seemed too good to be true-
As each day was so perfect
Every time I was with you.

Drifting like a boat at sea
Like fading memories-
Miles apart from yesterday
Of a love not meant to be.