their hands grasp around the flesh of my neck
never letting me go from their grip
whisper some more of those harsh words
tell them i’d like to hear them

say you know how i feel
say you think it’ll be over soon
only they know how long they’ll stay
ruining me like a burden to them

living like an elder being
tired, empty
an invisible hand guides me
to what society expects

but with you
i felt like i could bring myself to joy
be myself

i made you back away from us
and i miss you
as much as i hate to
and as much as i refuse to
after all
i’m the one that forced you to

in the longing souls of those around me
i sensed the pressure

no idea what to do
no idea what to say
no idea what to think or feel

in my head i feel the desperation
and i fear it
with all of myself

because i know i could never love someone
the way they would love me

in your eyes i saw myself
slipping away
from all that was once so important;
from you

you guided me to the light
for a little while
but now all of it feels foreign
and i get left in the dark
by you