living like an elder being
tired, empty
an invisible hand guides me
to what society expects

but with you
i felt like i could bring myself to joy
be myself

i made you back away from us
and i miss you
as much as i hate to
and as much as i refuse to
after all
i’m the one that forced you to

in the longing souls of those around me
i sensed the pressure

no idea what to do
no idea what to say
no idea what to think or feel

in my head i feel the desperation
and i fear it
with all of myself

because i know i could never love someone
the way they would love me

in your eyes i saw myself
slipping away
from all that was once so important;
from you

you guided me to the light
for a little while
but now all of it feels foreign
and i get left in the dark
by you