i don't really know what's it like
to fall in love
i thought i was in love
until i saw you with her
and it didn't really hurt that much
i didn't really feel anything at all
and i haven't since then
i've just been just kind of numb
and i'm starting to see
i know exactly what it's like to fall in love
it's falling out i haven't quite gotten yet.

*i.c.d

i feel buried
under the weight of all the secrets
people trust me with
and all the ones i make myself
every lie digging my hole
deeper and deeper into the ground
i'm tangled in my web of deceit
trapped in my hole
the secrets and angry words
come crashing down
and cover me completely
until my hole is full of lies
and i am at the bottom
and all the mistruth's became my casket
and all the secrets became my grave.

*i.c.d

angry waves tossed me about
they wouldn't let me go of their grasp
they clung onto my skin
dragging me under the turmoil
i was pulled down further
opening my eyes to an unexpected beauty
i looked up at the surface
the moon beams reaching past the outraged waves
filling up the water with light
it was silent and
b r e a t h  t a k i n g
and as the salty sea stole my lungs
i saw that the water wasn't killing me
it was saving me from so much more.

*i.c.d

i've come to the realization that
i'm hiding
not in a physical
no one look at me kind of way
but a mental
blocking people out kind of way
i didn't just build up my walls
i built a prison and locked myself inside
because i was trying to lock the crimes away
and i find
i'm the criminal.

*i.c.d

I miss
your electric
fresh kiss

the taste
of your sweet lips
erased

we're dead
all our words left
unsaid
*i.c.d