where would you be if there was no us?
no me....?
would you be the same you that i fell in love with?
would you still look at me when we passed in the hallway?
or would you turn away and pretend that im not there?

would you be where you are now with out me? ....

is it true that how i act is completely different then how i feel?

now take one step back.

if you never met me before, would you take the time to get to know me?

or would you walk by thinking that im the same as everybody else....

if you only knew my name and what i looked like; would you try to say you know who i am?

or would you be truthful and say you know my name, not my story....

i feel like i've been here before..
taken in by your eyes,
over powered by old lies..

i feel like i've walked across these grounds,
but i was broken before,
you read my mind,
so i left you there....

i feel like i've heard you speak my name,
but this was not the same,
you're different....
before you spoke my name out of anger,
and i sat quietly,
hushed in the corner.

i feel like i've cried my last tear,
not out of sorrow..
but out of loss....

i realized that i was never jealous....
i was affraid to lose you,
to something you began to miss....

for a split second, i thought that you would leave,
my voice became hushed, and my eyes were tearing up..
i looked at you and said, if this is what you want,
and you took me by the hand and said,
never in a million years, could i leave you here,
i fell in love with you, and thats what you shall hear..
never think im going to leave, or take you for granted. i love you with everything i have.. without you, i couldnt make it.. <3

i know that you can see me, because i clearly see you.
you think you are the best, but you're someone that i once knew.
you meant nothing then, and you mean nothing now,
so it's time to grow up and out of your foolish ways.
i know you're reading this, and thinking that I'm wrong,
but don't you remember when you cheated,
you even wrote that song.
you're a selfish pig, that should be put down.
because every girls you meet,
you say that you're in "love"

Now think again you're the age of 15,
you've been pushed away your whole life,
why would anybody want you now?
so you say I'm the one who deserves your ****?
well think again.
get over yourself cause I'm only saying this once,

"you're like a book, torn, tattered; sitting on a shelf where nobody wants to look."

ha, ring a bell? you told me that and I FOUND HELL.

so, and when you want to jump off that cliff, please save me a push, and jump yourself.

i love you,
its simply said,
i love you,
its in my head..

i know you're here,
and i am there..
but in my mind,
you're every where..

back and fourth,
we share a smile,
and into your arms,
i'll stay a while..

i never want to say goodbye,
i never want to see you cry,
i never want to break your heart,
cause i loved you from the start..

i love you more than you'll ever know,
i love you more than i ever thought i would,
i love you more than you love me,
i love you most <3

i pity you, you stupid *****,
cause all you are is ****** ****,
you think you are the best of all,
but i'll be there when you fall,
i hate your guts,
more than you know,
so please go die,
you ******* *** <3

im trapped in this state of mind,
a state that i can not feel the way i wish,
there is only one true person to tell us who to be,
that person is not you,
and is not me....
that person is sacred,
found only in your head,
now dont hold back,
dont waste time,
join my sacred state of mind <3

not to brag,
not to lag,
not to sound rude,
and not to have an additude,
but days like these,
tell me truths,
youre fake,
you get and take,
i hate you,
you love me,
your a *****,
and ugly <3

Maybe someday i will be able to erase you from my mind.
maybe someday i'll have th courage to be able to drive by your house and not look at it and remember piggy back rides and my legs around your waste as you kissed me.
maybe i'll be able to hold somebody's hand without wishing he was you.
maybe i will finally be able to write something happy in my poetry book.
maybe im actually done with you not beliving anything that i tell you.
maybe im fed up with all the stupid crap you've caused in my life.
maybe i want my life to be like it was before i had met you.
maybe i want my mom's trust and the old relationship we had back.
maybe i wish my family didn't know how i felt about you.
maybe i wish my mom didn't cry over the fact that i blame you for everything that happened.
maybe i wish i never texted you back after you said you loved me.
maybe someday.. just maybe....

i can be the sun when you need the warmth,
i can be the breeze when you need fresh air,
i can be the moonlight when youre walking all alone,
i can be the lyrics to your favorite song.

i can be whatever you tell me to..

but if you want me to be somebody else,
then i would change<3

i write now,
not for you,
nor myself..
i write for trust,
i write of lust,
i hear my breath fall..
i fill my head,
with the thought of you,
without regret..
youre something new..
i write with out correction,
without punctuation..
because the love we share needs no correction,
and i trust you dont need to punctuate our love..
i love you,
please know that..
were perfect..
dont forget that..

hello heart,
       hello heart, how do you do. did you here i love you ?
have you fell out of my chest, have you taken my one last breathe?
well today you found this one little mind,
the one you want, for all of time.
a fragile kid, sense of soul.. ahaha, juuuust kidding.
you broke a while ago.. but the problem is, you are about to fall in love with a boy, so brace your self <3

-- the broken girl you live inside of [:
P.S.... don't give up _52511

the cool breeze in the hot air,
the fallen leaves on the green grass,
kids in the yard and joyful,
happy?
disapointed?
sad?
confused?
yeah I know the feeling,
you're all alone in a world of 18 million people,
but not even one wants a thing to do with you.... </3

if you didn't want to do it then why would you?
to break me down,
to see me fall?
you knew i loved you after all.... /:

you heard my breath leave my lungs,
and yet when i hurt, you found it fun?

you broke me down about twelve times,
but never have i been so fed up with lies....

a simple phrase, like i love you,
i've heard it before, it's nothing new]:

now you regret what you have said,
think to why it ran through your head..
would you like to lie to me?
unlock my heart.. you have the key..

and now you say you wouldn't do what you did..
and i laugh at you, stupid kid </3

just a summer breeze in the quiet morning, the sudden fall of a maple leave, a golden kiss of a dragonfly, and the silent flutter of a sparrows wings.

its summer in the afternoon, falling into night, talking amongst their selves, and kissing under the bridge..

the warm hushed night has come to be, a simple wish just you and me, a faster trip to the tree were you once said you love me <3

there is this note i hold so close.. the last one that you passed.. the one that you told me all your feelings.. the one that you told me you messed up.. the one that you mentioned over and over again that you loved me but then i realized it was false hope.... the one that said you would do anything to have me back.. well im over you, you are my past.. i hate that you could simply move on so **** fast.. you make me sick beyond belief.. did you think that you could call me yours and the throw me away? who do you think you are, youre not the guy i fellin love with and youre not the one that i always wanted, and youre not the one who made me laugh when i had nothing left.. but you ....
i thought that you really ment every word you came to say.. but come to find out you were the one guy that tells every girl they are your forever, and that you love them and only them.. every single girl you meet is your babie girl and everytime you sent a random text it was for another girl and not me. i hate you so ******* much i want to dance upon your grave, i hate you more than every tear i cried for you, and i regret you more than anything.. i hate myself for loving you! and i hope you feel the same way to.

do you feel it too?
is that feeling new to you?
a tingle in your fingertips?
is it moving up to your lips?
can you feel the butterflies?
did you look him in the eyes?
have you told him how you feel?
did he tell you this was real?
are you staring at the stars?
are you are you forgetting all the scars?
do you know how this will end?
would you rather be his friend?
have you ever felt his kiss?
is he something that you'll miss?
do you know the name of this?
*its called love

along the path you set for me,
i came across a skeleton key,
off the side there was a tag,
the words i read seemed to lag,
i caught my breath and read aloud,

*take this key, i have endowed,
find my weakness.... break me down.

its just another poem,

its simply just one line,

its just one more thing,

that will waste my time,

i thought that i was done,

with all of your lies,

but no im looking back,

now i start to cry,

i feel the same way,

i felt when you left,

there can not be words,

if there is no breath,

a heart cannot bleed,

every drop of blood,

but when you broke it off,

you dropped me in the mud,

im broken and alone,

please pick up the phone,

i have one last thing,

i feel the need to say,

listen close and listen well,

all i was was a kiss and tell..

that smile that you planted into my mind,
its driving me crazy,
im starting to unwind..
the way you kissed my cheek when you wanted my attention,
the way i fell the need to remember your name is one i can not mention..
i thought i had it all,
when you were in my arms,
but i guess i was fooled,
cause that was one of your charms..
we always said i love you,
but neither of us even knew what love was..
for all we knew,
love was hanging out on the weekends and being snuggle buddies..
the fact that kisses just came so easily.. where did that go, we lost everything..
and we didnt even realize it till it was gone..

they have told me no more than once that youre not good,
and they dont know what i think they should,
ive liked you for long enough,
ik its hard and a little bit tough,
but thats how this works it a simple game,
and if you will youll have great fame,
the rules we will hold hands, hug, kiss, and snuggle..
the first one to fall in love loses.. <3

your big brown eyes in the autumn light,
everything you said always felt so right,
a broken heart on the edge of your sleeve,
everytime you said i'll never leave,
a secret love,
you had with her,
you even knew that i was hurt,
you called her name down the hall,
my mind went blank,
you saw me fall,
you called her rock,
and she called you back,
my heart was fragile,
put under attack,
you held my hand,
but thought of her,
i found my breathe,
and spoke in your ear,
something you thought,
that you would never hear..
i kissed your cheek and led you stray,
told you not to find your way,
you dropped my heart,
and soon to be,
you broke my heart,
at the age 13..

deprived of the right to breathe..
told not to listen..
left in a room, with nothing but paper and a pen..
instructions on the wall..
left to instruct all..
write down what your mind has brought to you
she looks at her hands..
picks the pencil up and records on the paper..
"i wish not to breathe and told not to listen,
this room is nothing but lonesome despare, let me out.."
the first tear falls, and the words disapear..