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Your voice runs through my head
A tape recorder
crackly and old.

I remember every word that
you have ever said.

They string along
flowing out of my ears.

Everything is backwards.

You can't control your destiny
but you have tried nonetheless.

Backwards and forwards.
Your fate is relentless.

You can only have the best
You never stop to rest.

Where are you going with your life
I wonder.

And how did you manage
to avoid such a blunder

This blunder meaning me,
My life.

Your run your life like you run your car.
Spewing out harmful toxins.

riding by the small things.
constantly looking ahead

you never stop to smell
daisys, daffodils.

you keep running over cats
you tires tread over my head.

what you say is harsh
and has no meaning.

i watch you and start silently seething

everything from your dandruff
to your hairy toes.
makes me want to knock you out cold.

you cant seem to string along thoughts that make any sense.
but i seem to remember what you say
more than ever.

your so hypocritical to me
and you say you want to be free.

you
are
a
joke.

the words you said to me
that night are branded into my brain

how am i even sane?

"You only want what you can't have,
i loved you,
did you know that?
Your insane for not loving me back,
you have more hidden issues
than ive ever had.
i did everything i could for you,
Did you know that?
i love you,
you know that."
Copyrighted AS 2009
all you want are pretty girls
with painted lips and bright eyes.
girls with soft voices and
soft hands and soft hearts.
girls with their necks on yours
and hips on yours
and lips on yours.

girls one in a million,
but a dime a dozen.
For all those girls that guys take for granted.
The smell of coffee and black sharpie fill your senses
Dragging yourself out of bed, you wrap the sheet around your naked body
Your head hurts more with every movement, every thought.

The sticky note on the door
written in small, squished, boy-like writing
"I never promised you forever."
Undisclosed feeling befalls upon me,
with undying things of uncertainty.
You stood at me without uttering a word...

How the hell would i know whats on your mind,
when all I am asking is a little time.
You look at me with bitter smile...

Heated arguments in silence,
walled thoughts of hatred fence,
You and me is all past tense

What becomes of us with this emotions,
when all we do is stare without solutions.
You moved away with regret in your eyes...

Doubt clustered the very core of your door,
how can i reach you if there's nothing more.
You left me in the middle of nowhere...
Your gaze kept me sane
from this  twisted emotion
Not even the stars can help me
avert from fallout devotion

Your regard with amusement puts
my soul into nothingness  
Transform this lifeless scenery with
your undying faith at ease

Your whole being  is the
air that I breathe
What would this existence be?
I’m begging you please...

I need you...

Suffocate me with your love
until I pass out from happiness...
You threw me away like I was garbage, yet I came back a shiny new toy. You treated me like I was nothing, Yet I showed you I was everything I have ever wanted to be. You told me no one ever loved me, Yet I have friends and family to prove you wrong. You told me you loved me with all your heart... Did you think I would believe you after all you had just said? Well, unfortantly I did... Yet I wish I hadn't. I fell for you hoping you were willing to catch me. But you weren't... I was just to stupid to see that. Out of everything I regret, I think saying Yes to you is the one thing I wish I could take back...:(
If only you could see how special you are to me;
If only you understand what your putting me through;
If only you didn't ruin me life;
Walking in a world that’s black and white
It’s lonely without you here
I’m haunted by shadows and false hopes
And the sound of my tears

I board the empty train
To leave behind this city
I must escape the endless rainfall
Here I am surrounded by my pity

The only luggage I have
A delicate box, felt lined
Filled with photographs
That I couldn’t leave behind

Sifting through the memories
As tears roll from my eyes
While the cities pass by slowly
Each picture seen, a part of me dies

The memories printed on paper
The laughs, celebrations and smiles
My mind has forgotten what happiness is
All I see is emptiness for miles
© August 19. 2010. Shanna Howse.
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