In my mind I already died
lying on an embankment
along the river of time.
I sighed and laughed
because the days spent were not really gone
in my peripheral mind.
Gazing down this hollow road
I see strange familiar eyes staring back at me
glowing behind the trees, hiding to be seen.
My foes are those I've known to trust,
before them, I'm gutted
my misery, it seems, feasted upon
though never feeding the bitter hunger
reaped from them within.
I find those eyes that glower
at me in the pitch of dark
For they are the light I see,
however scary,
They are truth

Tonight I'll sleep again
but will I dream again?
a tale with no beginning
and no end
Always picking up where my
subconscious mind left off
like seeing in the dark
But all these creatures
laying underneath my bed
nightly in my head
Where did they come from?
Kiss myself goodbye
and goodnight each time
I wake up each day
Because I may as well've
died somewhere in the night
Then I see the blinding burst
down upon my eyes
With nocturnal cries
only left
as an echo inside a dream
that once forgotten
Wasn't dreamt

Today I stopped to talk
to a lady named Truth
I couldn't help but wonder
why she looked so familiar
something about her face
I knew I had seen it before
Then I remembered where...
hers was the same as the disguise
worn upon the Lady that Lies

This hurt that lingers
This pain I carry by my side
Sometimes invisible
It chews on my pride
Resonating in my gut
Squeezing from the inside
Burn like clouds of fire
In the chambers of my chest
Now, black smoke in my soul
my eyes won't see the rest
This haunting emotion
It has me consumed
It's just not fair
Reason subsides and my
Heart is doomed

what is a name?
if it can be forgotten
and the fruit of life
that grows ever-rotten
what do words mean?
after they lose their meaning
while our faces still cry and smile
don't worry, don't fear
it'll all make sense, after awhile

I'm Blue
      a little sad too
   that's how it looks from
                                               down here
                                              too
Why, but I do
     regret sinks me too
    all the way to the bottom
                                               where
                                              everything's Blue

Scared to be happy
and used to being sad
Scared of getting hurt
like I already had

Scared of reality
so I stick to my thoughts
Scared of going nowhere
I remain still lost

Scared of loving again
like when I did before
Scared of giving it all
to nothing but a closed door

Scared of myself
always making mistakes
Scared is what I am
but I'll do what it takes

My spirit feels along with the trees
shaking off the brittle, dead leaves
They blow away in an Autumn breeze
baring ourselves for that winter freeze
Shy, always, to natures dormancy tease
but the cycle will start again, soon, with ease.

So many thoughts inside, they congest
Go away, please, so my mind can rest
Again my conscious breaks through night
Again I'm lost, this nocturnal fight

Hang me with your hook of desire
while I dangle over friendly fire

What is this Machine?
it seems we're all a part of
What do they mean?
It's a crazy scene
Somewhere along the line
I think we missed something

Damaged
My body and soul
Ripped and ravaged
empty and aching
from deep inside
My spirit breaking
Abandoned alone
It's my own fault
Misery prone
My mind is learning
but I can't get past
my soul yearning

It's nothing new
hidden there for awhile
Like a sword of ice it's frozen
me numb and so I smile
until I'm all melted within
Core of my subconscious mind's unrest
the truth of myself
that my waking mind suppressed

Burning sky with clouds of fire ablaze
deep within the chambers in my chest
Black smoke fills my soul
As the desolate air stings my skin with loneliness
This haunting emotion, spirit consumed
embraced by confusion
Reason subsides and so my heart is doomed

the Moon
always see you again so soon
When I look away, you wink
I look back and you just stare
You see the future
        and the past
And it wasn't long, since I saw you last.

garbage is not
         just in the trash
it's everywhere
         in our lives
we still have to
         take time
to dump it all
         somewhere in the past...

These waves
of deep emotion
tugging like the tide
in the ocean
keep chippin' away
my bone straight to the soul
maybe this
was a diamond that turned to coal...

There is no path to follow
but there are footsteps
it's hard to see through the fog and brush
some of those prints
may be from yourself
just going back the way you came
around and around, like a game
You have to make your way
The branch that sticks you
will be your weapon,
the bug that that bites you
will fill your stomach,
the dark that blinds you
will train your intuition
the fangs that scare you
will teach you to defend yourself
just as the cold that surrounds us
draws us to move forward
the lonely desolation teaches us
to value human kind and companionship
the trees that block our perception
will teach us to climb
and once we look at this and find
the simple beauty
we will be happy.

It's what I wanted
it's what I asked for
Why did all this time
have to go and pass for

It's you that's always
invading my mind
You show up on my lips
only time to time

Eyes so deep
You wear your feelings like a shield
Then once again you touch me
and I feel something so real

It's like nothing ever happened
you look right past me
Do you know how I feel?
Why don't you ever ask me?

Now I want you to tell me
what you are between the lines
You don't have to say forever
just let me in sometimes.

I never felt lonely
until I met you
with what's said and done
all else remains untrue
We're so perfectly the same
why can't you see it to?
In my heart I believe
you would if you wanted to
I can't eat, I don't sleep
say you love me too
I am wasting my time
just thinking of you
You make my soul sing
it's all I want to do
I never felt lonely
until I met you

I can't live when I feel
that I have no will
time I try to steal
but mistakes make me heal
I sense the truth inside
my heart hurts from the ride
there's so much to lose
when living is what we choose

I'm surrounded by people
that don't wear their own faces
They speak their words
My sense of reality erases

Even the mirrors are telling a lie
they're showing a different story
than the one I've heard
One I made up, caught in the glory

Time is leaving me
but here my past stays
they say the future is waiting
though nothing's changed
Maybe my hope is gone
away with my days
Even who I can be
will vanish in the haze

And my mind wanders
I'll say the least
Don't care to explain
No excuses; no reasons
I could be insane
my moods are my seasons
you don't have to believe
or even pay attention
you can turn your back and leave
nothing again will I mention

I sing a song I sing
when the world gives me nothing
There's a tune that I play
saving me from what I'd have to say
There's a beat that I feel
when nothing else is real
And a rythym in my head
it'll go on, even after i'm dead

It's like being ****** to the bottom
while looking way up to the top
It's like you can see when you're blind
while deaf ears read another's mind
You feel it even when it's not there
only because you believe it's somewhere
I'm sad to be happy, and happy to be sad
All of my good blends with all of my bad
I had to get lost before I'll be found
have to go backwards before I can turn around

It's a dream, nobody's awake
No line between the real and the fake
Try telling the truth from all of the lies
What you love is the same as what you despise
Once you smile and twice you cry
Isn't that what it is to be alive

They say pain is beauty,
but beauty is pain.
You give up so much
until you're frozen to the touch
The right answer to the wrong question
haunts my mind like infestation.
I handed you the knife that cut me open
the salt burns, hurts the worst
but I pretend I'm copin'

Stop using me
for whatever you want me for
You make me feel like no one else can
then again, I am your *****
Stop making me believe
that somewhere there's hope for us
After all, do I even know you?
Not even your words I can trust
Stop leading me on,
you know how to do it so well
then I feel worthless and alone
I always wondered why you couldn't tell
Stop blinding me
this blazing smoke to my eyes
You set my spirit on fire
I still think I love you, is that a surprise?

Today I talked to a man
who didn't know his own name
he looked me in the eyes, I heard him laugh
it was all just the same
I had to leave him, I had to catch the bus
but I told him I loved him and we'd see each other again
even when we're all nothing but dust

Fireworks in the sky
       ****** lie, ****** lie
forget the screams,
       terror, depravation, and dead baby's cry
for it's the Fourth of July!

What you call an act of heroism, I look at as acting on a basic human level. An act of pure humanity: feeding those who are hungry; clothing those who have nothing; a bed to those who have no home; and medicine for those in pain or dying. This façade of society that has blinded our own natural instincts and the money and greed that has faltered our awareness and empathy for others, it is fueled by ignorance. We are told to value life, but brought up to value a number on a bank statement. We are told to be thankful for what we have (our "blessings") and to help our fellow man, but then we are conditioned to lay unwarranted weight upon petty insignificancies and shallow desire. We talk about advancing the world, but every breath we take as mankind seems to lead us further into this disarray of natural worldly priority- preserving and protecting and progressing mankind.

Your words, they touched me deep inside
in the pit of my stomach, it's where they lied
Your eyes, they do something to me too
right through me, they never knew
Your heart, I heard its aching sound
maybe mine too is what it should have found

When it rains it pours
       at least that's what they say
all of it comes down at once
      however, a prelude to clear brighter days
the wind blows me in different ways
      the hail hits deep inside, it stings
keep moving, I don't seek shelter
      the storm knows my spirit sings
the clouds cry and the sky we can't predict
       these forces didn't come from nowhere
although our sights don't seem to go very far
       we can not deny nature's heart, it's always there.