Dunno why I'm saying
Never bought it but I'm still paying
I do smile but inside I'm dying
I dunno how to stop this worthless crying

I was so happy when I first met you
Filled with a dream that I might get you
You want to do it and I let you
But i never expected this I bet you

You just tore me apart and I didn't said anything
Cuz I wanted you to fly on your own wings
That's why I never shown you my wounds
Never let you know what my cry sounds

But you never saw what I was
Cuz you're busy in your own fuzz
More or less, I blame my own fate
I wasn't late yet you closed your gate

I used to stand out
Now I'm standing out
Forgetting everything,For which I fought
Cuz I had only you in my thoughts

But now I'm out
Lost everything,for which I fought
Lost everyone in this war
Got only thing,that was a scar
With a story behind
Which I always hide
So that no one touch
And no one find

Though my situation was tough
Running out of stuff
Just in collar and cuff
But I realised that I was enough

That day was my biggest win
I almost forgot you and my every sin
With the lights dim
Filled glass to brim
I began to dream
Of that ice cream
For which I was sorry
Now that's not a thing to worry
I know i can't afford you fish curry
But I knew that I could end up your worries

but no more regret
No more pray
I understood,it's me
Who wanted to stay
And it's you who started to play
I was made of clay
I didn't wanted to play
Yet I had to do
For sake of the two
You've won the game
You got the fame
Have No shame
Yet a big name
But I won myself
Like that dobby elf
Cuz I knew

I am enough

I still love you..
But I can't touch you cause my hands painted with blood of my dreams..
But I'm sorry I couldn't afford you that ice-cream..

I still love you..
But I can't hug you cause my shirt is wet with my sweat..
But I tried my best to get you that dress I bet..

I still love you..
But I can't kiss you cause my lips are torn..
cause sometimes I'm afraid and cuss myself that why I was born..

I still love you..
But I can't show it cause inside I'm dead..
Cause i fear I might not able be able to provide you proper food, shelter or even a bed..

I still love you..
I know you don't know it..
That's the biggest **** of my life..
Cause I might not be able to make you my wife..

I still love you..
Ever after knowing that I'm worthless..
I don't have home, cash or face..
I don't even know how I'll survive..
No idea..no plan..no trace..

But I still love you..
Because I believe that one day..
One day..I'll make you say..
That I loved you from core of my heart..
Hiding all those pain..from those poison dart..
From all those fake people with face of crab..
Neglecting all those pain and their painful grab..
Pushing myself towards you, tearing myself apart..
To that very point till where you reached but decided to part..

Even after knowing that I will fail..
I won't reach the shore by just grabbing a fish tail..

I just want to see that precious pearl..
Your brown hair and it's curl..
Your smile and your face..
My only have of survival in this fine piece of mess..

I am running short on words time & life..
I regret only one thing that I couldn't made you my wife..

Because i still love you..