New days on the horizon,
The time when nothing,
Took control,
Was it just a passing phase?
Sublime,
Memories unfold,
I took the wrong turn I fear,
Where my life,
Steers from here,
Surrounded by an
atmosphere,
Inherently grey,
The guess ain't mine,
Entwined epitaphs,
To a beginning and an end.
My friends,
I cried much too long,
And sang those songs of sorrow,
New Seeds are planted now,
But don't forget to water,
I wonder where my daughter is today?
Pushing back on in from the frey I found,
With life upside down,
Gets harder every day,
The frey can have a mighty hold,
And not let go,
But here I stand.
Lamented,
Now a new man.

On the pavement,
I was waiting,
For that moment,
To arrive,
The day I die,
Its all over,
I found moreover,
Why.
It was the sever,
From my children,
That kept me spinning,
Straight down,
Was In that moment,
Speaking to them,
That I Realised.
Can it mend now?
Time will tell how,
If the fracture,
Will ever mend,
In the beginning,
At the birth I,
Never thought it,
Would ever end.
I realise now I must keep going,
Days of sorrow,
Fall behind,
I found the reason,
To keep going,
I found the reason,
Of my life.
Bitter hatred,
Tore them from me,
Bitter hatred,
Held me down,
It was for nothing,
Yet for someone,
My connection to them,
Had to end.
I realised after I was talking,
I went to walking of my fears,
Bitter tears that I had cried,
All fell on deaf ears.

With tremendous
Vigour,
I plan for winter,
The longest in my life.
Fate folded on me,
Shut me from the light.
I wake each morning,
To begin a new day's fight,
Try I must,
Try I might.
Suicide does cross my mind,
I find some days are tough,
Needled with a poison,
That crushes all my ******.
They try to **** me,
Keep me down,
Spreading lies and,
Casting frowns.
My life as is,
A total let down,
Fighting me they must.
Trapped in darkness,
My throat they cut.
I pleaded why,
They have to try,
To destroy that's all of me,
They don't mind,
It is their job,
The government
does hate me.

Bells ring in as,
I wake them,
Fate has,
No meaning,
Seething,
Writhing,
Tossing,
Turning,
They will burn and,
Die.
I asked .. "why"?
" Because we can",
Came the reply.
"There must be a way,"
I thought to myself,
.. ..... .. ..... ..
There's nothing,
No,
Not at all.
They came to destroy,
That Is .. .. .. All.
That's .. .. ..
All they know,
What to do,
Decades past,
But I knew.
They .. .. .. wanted to,
That's the answer,
No substitute,
For the disaster,
They didn't my life .. .. ..
After All.
They wanted my death,
So they could applaud.
..
So they could applaud.
..
Everything is gone ..
And I have to accept my fate.
Not a single friend,
The world .. ..
So full,
of hate.
..
..
So full
of hate .. .. Control,
Was their .. .. .
Option,
Control,
The only plan
Great pride,
In knowing.
I had .. no where.
I've never known,
Evil this
tenacious,
Before.
I realised,
That .. .. ..
The pain in my brain,
Came .. .. .. .. .. back.
It came back .. .. .. ..
I don't know why,
Death, Was to be my fate,
But no more tears are left.
.
The strength .. .. .. .. ..
To end my life .. .. .. ...
Is all I need.
I fought my best,
But this .. ..
Is the destiny,
Cast down on me.
..
I asked Pavati,
What did she need ?
For me to die,
Most,
Definitely.
Definitely.
A Definition of war vs peace.
I chose the later,
But the former,
Was the world's need.
From me,
Taken .. ..
Every piece of life.
Just so that they
could say,
"It was us",
"We made him die".
The hard work that went into it,
I never knew it,
There was so much systematic,
*******,
But in the end,
I'll take their souls with me.
..
Turns out,
The cause of evil,
Really simply put,
.
Is Greed

Positioned
in prime position,
I remenice of,
A day when,
I could just ... Get on with it.
Simply a dream.
But I'm inspired
To keep on fighting.
Till I'm
Reminiscent,
of ..... Better thingx.
Like ... ... ... ... ... Anything other then the last nightmares I lived with.
... ... ... ... ...
Crimson Tidex Cross my mind,
But my life is timeless,
One day ... ... ... ... ... far from now,
I'll get my chance to start.
But ... ... ... Before that happenx,
I have to tear some
worldx ... ... ... ... ... ... ... Apart.