She fed everyone lies
And now she has no real ties
Living in her deluded world
Unaware of what she did
How can you be evil
If you think youare truly good
I would sincerely help you
If only you would turn true

Is this feeling positive or negative?
Sometimes it spurs me on
Sometimes it drives me to madness
So what do I do?
Can I live without stress
But isn't that the same as aimless
I therefore conclude
Stress is confusing

If I am nice, people take advantage
If I hold back, I am called cruel
If I smile, I'm taken for a fool
If I frown, they think I am rude
If I act, you want me to be honest
But if I am honest, I become the mean girl
I am sick of living in a judgemental world
But how do we change
Because to us, first impressions count
**WE HUMANS ARE THE WORST

My hubris prevented me from seeing it
I thought I was always a step ahead
I now realise I was two steps behind
She used my innoncence, the most precious of my gifts
I now realise
The closer I look
The less I see

I remember my first year
so eager, so happy
Grinning from ear to ear
Forging new friendships
And soon we were joined at the hips
Gaining new knowledge and skills
Absorbed like water through gills


But soon my fairytale turned bad
My mind started going mad
My friends stabbed me in the back
And my heart is now cracked
This second yaer is a nightmare
My plan backfired right there
If only my life would rewind
From life I want to **resign

Why is it that just the very thought of him
Gets me overwhelmed
Every night I dream of him
But no matter how hard I chase
I can never hold his hand
For he is fictional

I thought I could trust her
She played me for a fool
And used me as a tool
My trust is now broken
Just like my fragile heart
I will never be whole again
I now trust no one