My grasp on reality
in patterns over my eyes
the vibrations, sensations,

  draw
        me
              far
                    from
   ­                        this
                                   life.

Down two pills,
climb two levels.
Mind rises to heaven,
Body falls to pebbles.

Smile brightly at the world,
with eyes that cast black shadows.

My mind is racing,
but my thoughts are spacing.

I taste the music's every word
close my eyes, and hide the blur.

My heart tuned to a hummingbird.
I'm providing depression with my own cure.

Another sleepless night awaits
for the colors and delusions my mind creates.
climbing back down with anger and pain,
hoping that no one will see my shame

In some time I will  be returning
to lay with my thoughts and try to rest
some ask if it's worth it, all things concerning,
and, for some reason, I always say yes.

we are frozen by nature
and a past that
lives and grows
choking out, like weeds,
the future because
there’s not enough room in
us for both.

A war lashes out inside of me
One side will fight
While the other does flee
With every move I make
I am prodded with fury
I jab, I dodge, I rush forward
Only to be thwarted
To be turned away
To be deserted
I'm left in the dark.
My anger lights a match
It soon catches the trees
Until everything is on fire
And I cease to breath