Another 365 days
8,760 hours
525,600 minutes
and
31,536,000 seconds
without seeing her...

That day she walked away
was the day my world turned grey
My life went colorless
I became powerless
I felt as if the world was crumbling down
I felt as if I was going to drown
In my own tears

Now about 8 years has passed
and by her memory, I am still harassed
She won't let me be
And I am not able to flee
She still visits my mind
and it is causing me to be blind
To the world around me

I can still see her face
It is something I am not able to erase
I wish I could see her now
because she is something that I cannot live without
Not being able to see her makes me feel so much pain
It's like my world receives no sunlight and only rain
My life is falling apart at the seems

Maybe if I just laid here
All my feelings of grief will disappear
My hurt that she chose "it" over me
The sorrow from realizing that her getting better can't be foreseen
The regret of not trying to stop her from running away
And as a result, my world feels like its under the wrath of Pompeii
My soul is slowly burning away

She is my world
Even if I might not be hers
I will always be there for her
Even though she has never been there for me
I have already forgiven her for the things she did
Even though my other family hasn't
I will love her
Even if she isn't sure that she feels the same way
I will never forget her
Even if she has already forgot me
And, I will never give up on her
Even if no one else believes in her
Because no matter what,
I will always love her!

Why is it that in all our life's there is always
drama
heartache
regret
Why isn't there always
happiness
joy
love
I wish I lived in a world like that
A world like no other
Where the grass is always greener
And the skies always bluer
Why
Maybe because we just like the drama
But if you do like the drama and attention
let me just tell you right now
You might as well get some armor and head to the battlefield
because that' where you are gonna end up.....
So you might want to learn how to grow up real fast
before you end up starting a war

My feeling are all jumbled up inside
And it feels like my brain is fried
My heart is aching
because people think my heart is theirs for the taking
But...
There was a guy I met
And he made me feel no regret
of me ever meeting him!!!

I thought we could have really had a connection
I mean he really got my attention
He was the one I thought of as I lay there in my bed
And he was constantly in my head
He still is
and I still want to be wrapped in his arms of his

I still have all those "feelings"
And I would do anything to be back in his arms
For I still miss him and that will never change
and if he never understands the feelings I have for him
Then my heart will just be broken...
Because my feelings will be out of control
so I hope he comes to his senses
and comes back to me
So I can tell him....
I love you!!!!!

She picked it over her own children
she didn't even care
She didn't even love them
she didn't even try
for all she cared
they could curl up in a ball and cry
She tried to give them everything a kid would want
and she knew it was a taunt
but now they are older
and she is gone
like she was never even there in the first place
Now she is gone and she's doing what she does
We tried to get her to stop but she didn't give it up
she was addicted
she didn't want to let the good feelings she got go
she never loved her children
she never cared for them
she might have acted like she cared
but no one was fooled
but now she's gone
out of our lives
and she's never coming back
haha
she was never coming back
and she never loved us in the first place
but now....now...
she's probably up in the mountains somewhere
doing things some people can't even imagine
:(
and she is never,ever gonna stop doing what she is doing
because she's addicted!

I feel like the whole world is pushing me
Pushing me to my knees
I collapse under all the pressure
I let out a high pitched scream
The world laughs at my attempts to fight back
To fight back and forcefully react
My attempt is passive
I fall down with impact
The world makes me lose my mind
Lose my mind and slowly is killing me inside
I fall as they tear my heart open
They then make me blind
I'm wishing they would just **** me
**** me now because I have already accepted defeat
They ask if I have any last words before I die
I say "Just finish me off so I can be free"
I wake up in a familiar room
The sun is shining so I assume its the afternoon
I get up, glad it was all just a dream
And I let out a sigh of relief
It was just a nightmare I tell myself
But know I know there is such thing as Hell
I go back to my bed and lay back down
And go back under the sleeping spell

People think she's too far gone
People say the devil has won
To me, they are wrong
And they need to learn where they belong
Because she just needs a little inspiration
Instead of people telling her negations
She just needs her daughters in her life
She just needs to stop living in the night life
She needs to get off the drugs
Because when she was off them she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen and she was also the one that would give out hugs!
:)
I just miss the old her
Not the one that was always in a blur
I pray for her every night
Hoping that one day she will see the light
I miss her more than anything
And I would give up my life to see her again
To all the people reading this
Don't make the same mistake she made
please
I don't want your kids to end up like me
I'm just glad that I have my step mom and my dad to comfort me
They are the only reason why I am who I am today
Thank you dad
Thank you Holly
...
I love you
p.s. I love you too mom!:(

Your the one who let me down
Your the one who left this little town
I really don't understand
There is not a safe place to land
I thought you loved me
I thought you were the one to be
Maybe I should move on from you
For all I know, someone else might love you too
oh, how can I forget you

I can't get you off my mind
I might need some time to unwind
I'm sorry I loved you too much
I just got so used to your gentle touch
I miss our kind and gentle eyes
That made me never want to say goodbye
And the way you say my name
You make it sound so tame
oh, how can I forget you

I thought we had a connection
But ou just thought of me as a rejection
I know its more than a crush
that its a bit of a rush
I still don't want to lose you
oh, how can I forget you

9looking into your eyes
is like watching the sunrise
when I looked at you for the first time
I knew you'd be my valentine
I miss you so much
I miss your old touch
oh, how can I forget you

It might be too cold for angels fly
But I hope we are not saying goodbye
Sometimes I wonder if your even real
Or is it just my mind trying to heal
I'll never forget you
For I don't know how too
Oh, how can I forget you!

If only he could see what I see
If only he realized my heart was a lock and his contains the key
I wish he could read my mind
So he can stop being so blind
Why can't he see me
do I really have to plea
If only he would really look into my eyes
Then he wouldn't want to saw goodbye
Only if he could feel what I feel
The love I feel
If only he could see......

One day,
you might realize that he's not the one
One day,
You might realize he is
But the thing is,
No matter what happens
Just remember that I'll be there,
Through everything you go through
I'll be there!

I'll be there when your:,
mad
happy,
even sad
when your feeling down,
And on the verge of tears
Ill be there to catch them before they hit the floor

I'll be there no matter what happens...
Because I Love You!!!!!!

I used to not believe
I used to just grieve
But now I do believe
I used to be so naive
But that is the past
I just hope this feeling will last
I still can't believe you left us
Man, you almost made me cuss
But I still love you
Even though you left us, that love had grew
I love you mom!!!

I'm in love
That's the truth
He's my anything and everything
He is my white dove

I'm in love
He's smart
He's funny
He was sent from above

I'm in love
He's cute
He's talented
And best of all..
He's mine!!!

The day you left me
was the day my world came tumbling down
The day you left me
was the day I woke up from my fantasy
and faced reality
That was the day I finally realized you were a waste of my time

Why didn't I face this dilemma sooner
I don't know
Maybe because I didn't want to
or maybe I just didn't want to face the truth
But does anyone?
No one can look into the eyes of the person you love and say:
Goodbye
I don't want to see you anymore

So because of what you've done
I'm done
We're done
And were never going back to what we used to be
I'm like...like a flower
I need someone to:
take care of me
love me with all their heart
and to treat me like I'm the only one in the world capable  to piece your heart back together
And I figured out your not the one to treat me how I deserve

Who should I fear
You
or maybe just the fact that I can't trust you
that's your question to answer
so answer it
Or are you the one that don't want to face the end
Because....
I'm not afraid anymore
I'm not a child
Get used to it!

If today was our last day
What would you say?

Would you give all your possessions away
Or would you hide it all in a cache

Would you finally get on your knees and pray
Or would you let yourself go down on Judgement day

Would you say goodbye to all your family and friends
Or would you never try to make amends

Would you give all your riches to the poor
Or would you think that is something you would deplore

Would you say sorry for all the bad things you have done
Or would you just leave that chore undone

and most importantly,

Would you be ready to let go
Would you be able to reap what you sew

Would you be able to leave the past behind
Never again to unwind

What would you do if it was your last day?

"Life Without You""Life Without You"

His eyes melt me
His smile completes me
His laugh dazzles me
He is a part of my life
And I am lucky enough to call him mine!

I'm trying to hold back the tears
But his voice is all I hear
He says he is very disappointed
But at least he isn't disjointed
I can't hold back the sobs much longer
But at least I know I have grew stronger
I'm sorry it disappointed you
I'm disappointed too
I'm sorry
I made a mistake....

The moon is so beautiful tonight
Jut hanging there in the midnight light
It is such a peaceful night
Especially with him by my side
sitting on the branch of a tall willow tree
Just thinking about where we are going to be
In just a few, short years
And how we are gonna have to face our fears
We can make it through
As long as we have each other!!

I can see your arms around my waist,
My arms around your neck
Dancing in the moonlight,
on a beautiful summer's night
During this romantic time,
I'm thinking
are you the one for me,
or the one not to be
My Love!

When I look into your eyes,
I cannot say my goodbyes
You are always sweet,
And you are always kind
Then it it me,
All I wanna do is hold you in my arms
And never let you go,
so I'm thinking
Wow,
You really might be
My Love!

Now I lay in my bed
Thinking of you,
So you can make my dream come true
So the night is drawing to a close,
As I say goodnight
My Love!

Now that your gone
I can finally get you off  my mind,
Not that your not here
I'm finally free,
I played with fire
So I got burned,
I got what I deserved
I learned my lesson!

Why do we fall so easily,
when there's no one to catch us?
It doesn't make sense,
so why do we do it
Maybe because we want to feel:,
important
loved,
cared for
Or maybe just because we like to be in the center of a guy's attention!

We never know what we got ourselves into until our heart gets broken,
then you realize
that you are way better off without him,
You'll meet someone better
someone who cares for you and only you,
someone who loves you
someone who won't leave you!

The way you smile at me
The way you look at me with those brown eyes
The way you make me who I want to be
And the way you say goodbye

Your gentle touch
Your loving heart
I know we could never be torn apart

My heart is yours for the taking
And if your's is mine, that'd be amazing

Because I know our love is pure and true
Thats why my heart belongs only to you

I know no matter what
Our love will light the way
Through the night and through the day
I love how you keep me falling for you
With every little thing you do
And I just wanted to tell you
I LOVE YOU!

You are my shining star
My one and only,
Your the one I look up too
I love you so much,
You make me feel so special
You make me want to smile as bright as the sun!

You make me feel like I'm alive,
You might make me shed a tear every once in a while
But you come through in the end,
I love everything about you
even after all we've been through,
I'm sorry for all the bad things we have said and done
But you know  the past is past!

You've taught me everything I know
but the most important lesson I've learned is:,
"A million tears can be shed
but it won't change what you've done",
You changed my life forever
I love you mom!!!

You might have left scars
But at least I'm not the one behind bars
I remember what you did
Why do you think I always hid
You might have left me
You might have left a lot of debris
But I'm still not gonna let that fact get me down
No, I'm not gonna wear a frown
I'm gonna show you I am not gonna be anything like you
Everything in my life is going to come into view

You might have left scars
But I'm not the one who don't get to see the stars
I have everything I could ever possibly want
But let me just change this into a different font
I'm living my life like I want to
I'm doing what I want to do
I have my family
I get treated fairly
I have my friends to depend on
I have all the stars to wish upon
I told you I have my whole life ahead of me before
now, goodbye
I have the whole world to explore
You might have left scars
....
But I'm not gonna let that get me down!
:)

Everyone has secrets
I guess you can tell
Some barely hide them
Others hide them too well
But no matter what they do
They will always going to come back to haunt you
:(

If one night you see a shooting star,
Make sure that you find out who you really are
make a wish on that shooting star,
Don't believe it might be too far
Wish for anything you want,
For you know it's such a taunt
Wish for riches,
wish for love
wish for anything you want!

When you see that bright yellow star,
You will realize who you are
soon enough you will see its brightness,
Through all the sky's darkness
Now that you know who you are,
This doesn't seem so bizarre
Maybe your wish may come true,
Then everything will come into view
Or maybe it will not come true,
But if that happens,don't be blue
For maybe someone already wished on that star,
And finally figured out who they are
so don't be disappointed!

IN the end you will be grateful
and you won't be hateful,
Even if one night you don't see one
It will not be over and done,
You will see another one  day
And it will seem far away,
But if you make that star yours and only yours
Its yours to keep over the years,
it's very simple if you might see
that there is no need to plea,
soon you realize
that it is not goodbyes!

well,
morning is coming so I must go
I will never forget this though,
for every night I will throw a shooting star into the sky
just for your gorgeous eyes,
well I must retire
For I am being admired,
goodbye
my shooting star!

My heart skipped a beat
My knees got weak
I forgot to breathe
just because you smiled at me
:)

I am thankful
I am proud
I am happy
I am glad
I just wish other people would be thankful
I wish that other people would see what I see
That the whole world is full of wonderful things
But I guess it's kind of hard when your friends are backstabbing you
That's the thing
People don't know how to mind their own business
How to shut up every once in a while
I mean we DO live in a bad world
Full of ****** and hate
Then we live in a world full of love and good
Why doesn't the world just make up its mind
I wish it would
But even though we live in a horrible but beautiful world
Be thankful
......
I know I am!

Finally I have found the one,
Finally there is no need to run
Finally I am set free,
I have finally found the key
I finally found the one!

I am with him every day
Because I am in love with him in every way
I know this time it is real
Because of the way he makes me feel
I finally found the one!

I love the way his eyes
make me never want to say goodbye
And I love the way he says my name
because it makes me feel the same
I finally found the one!

Every time he takes my hand
it simply makes me harder to stand

My feet start to trip over one another
My knees buckle
And the cause of all this trouble
Is because I have found one like no other

I am am happy to say,
I finally found the one!

Mountains of colorless dreams,
Hold the now, distant memories.
Oceans full of salty tears,
Hold the aweful crys of children and peers.
The land of childish toys,
Brought the feelings of happiness and joy.
The beautiful meadow,
Where she first met her handsome fellow.
Old song lyrics play for everyone to hear,
As if nothing ever disappears.

Shards of a once broken heart litter the ground,
Angry monsters hide in the darkness, awaiting to be found.
Broken shoes and ripped up jeans,
Thrown away back when the were teens.
Pictures from when they were children fall from the trees,
The music continues to be dragged on through the breeze.
A trench is nearly filled from letters they never sent,
In there are 100's of different content.

They keep traveling for what they are looking for,
For the need is to much to ignore.
Finally, they finally see the setting sun,
And started to run.
Over a hill, and through a forest,
They finally crossed a bridge, just as promised.
And suddenly it came into view
They felt as if they got a case of deja vu.
They had finally found what they had came for
It was so close, just across the shore.

They had finally found,
The Valley of Future Memories.

Beautiful, soothing, wavy

Lover of glancing at the sharks in the no swimming area

Who feels thrilled when I ride abwave and see many people watching

Who wonders if a shark really mistakes people for seals in the deep, daring, dangerous waters

Who fears that one day an octopus will come and its tiny teeth will shred me in half

Who would like to bring the Loch ness Monster back to life and be queen of Atlantis

Who is able to go scuba diving without getting bit by a lemon shark in its molding, melting, and magnificent lair

Who dreams to save the sharks from extinction from the throbbing and clutching fishermen...