I try, honestly
I really do try
But no one sees
they dont see me
they see someone but its not me
why don't you look closer
I'm right there  just below the surface
all you have to do is look closer
and you'll see

see that i'm scared
that i'm alone and tired
that i cant hold it in anymore
that it all seems like to mush
that i know i'm wasting it all
that im lost, dissapointed,and devastated
about to break down
every day

A dark blot sits at the corner of my mind
lurks in every room
threatening my peace
so hard fought for and never won
tip the scales and out it comes
stretching, bones cracking
reaching and straining
i have nowhere to hide
the upsets and rages off center me
as the metamorphosis becoming
overtakes me
mr center and peace is shattered
undone, betrayed me
as the heavy cloak drapes around me
all is lost
everything is slid sideways
an I must begin again

A dark blot sits at the corner of my mind
lurks in every room
threatening my peace
so hard fought for and never won
tip the scales and out it comes
stretching, bones cracking
reaching and straining
i have nowhere to hide
the upsets and rages off center me
as the metamorphosis becoming
overtakes me
mr center and peace is shattered
undone, betrayed me
as the heavy cloak drapes around me
all is lost
everything is slid sideways
an I must begin again

Where are you at? My mother asks me

I am out among the mountains, I say
I am out amongst the stones

The night is uneasy
Wind groaning the trees to a sway
Omems fly round my head like debris
As a gale pushes at my window
Sleep will not come easy tonight
As this tempest pushes my peace away