Be careful what you wish for
Because the weight on your shoulders is a heavy one to carry
But I asked for this
And now I wish that I hadn’t
When I close my eyes the images inside are hard to bear
These things were passed on secondhand and I wish I didn’t care
But I do.
And it hurts that I wasn’t the one who you told first
That’s not even the worst part.
No, I saved the best for last and the fact that your heart decided to depart
Makes it harder to cope.
Everything you worked for is now just dust in the wind
And now you’ve decided to travel the path of sin
Well,
They don’t call it the straight and narrow for nothing
But I guess that doesn’t matter
And they weigh you down with lies
I’ll be the first one to tell you to sever all ties
And it’s not you who I despise
Nevertheless it still hurts.
So just lie to my face and act like everything is fine
Trust me, I won’t be able to find the time to entertain the thoughts you keep locked up inside.
You are only hurting yourself.

This is a letter addressed to someone
Though I do not know their name
I hope that one day we will be together just the same.

This is a letter for my lover
One whom I do not know
I only wish I could put a face to this message that I wrote.

Nevertheless I think that I worry way too much
About things that don’t concern me, or at least not yet
But they itch and they scratch and annoy me, they are biting at my neck.

One day I will be man enough to face my problems, or at least I hope, and I do hope.
I hope that I will not have to face these giants alone.
That I will have someone to hold in the comfort of our home.

And although you are just a faceless, nameless person whom I have yet to meet,
I can’t wait until the day that I can actualize defeat,
And know that I can’t stand on my own two feet,
That I can’t sleep, drink or eat,
Without you.

I’ve seen a ghost inside of me
It mocks the things I wish that I could be

Return is my downfall and forward is the key
And you hold everything I need.

I don’t mean to boast but I’ve seen bigger things than what your eyes have seen
But I’ve gouged out my own eyes and forgotten all the memories

Don’t turn your back on what you’ve learned it will keep you when your heart grows cold
If only we’d remember the lessons we were never told.

I wish I could write the memories of the things that I have never done
But take me as you find me you know that I could never come

To find the grace been given I can feel your urgency
Pride is on my shoulder it’s the villain that has captured me.

This person who I have become is wrecking things and breaking down the only part of who I was and I must say,
That I believe in everything and I can’t seem to find my way but searching has only left me empty
So be the ghost inside of me and haunt my every being it’s the only way that I could ever be
You’re grace is like the autumn leaves falling down on everything I wish this moment would never pass me by.