You had my mind spinning for awhile,
My first real love. Real emotion. Real pain.
I gave you my biggest possession, one that will not return,
I gave you my hand in marriage, until we crumbled.
Bits of our hearts, swept away in the wind.
Looking for something more, we both would never admit.

You don't understand it
You make my heart race, light it on fire, then set the ashes free;
Only to collect them at a later date and mend me back together.
You twist my love and hate together.
The desire, the pain, what is this worth?

Wholesome, innocent, blinders on;
Confusion, bitterness, boarder-line depression;
Suicide attempts, broken-ness, lost;
Sudden hidden happiness, struggle, rebellion;
Real love, decisions, growing;
Blinders off, eternally.