This house shakes beneath your weight
And I was never very good at steadying things
Maybe I'll just set it to flames
With lipstick stained cigarette butts
Instead

I'm between two minds
Two synapses
The cracks in the freeway
Take me to the stargazing spot
Tripping
The stars will drop from the sky
To your eyes
And I'm falling in love
Slow love
The way I told you to love me
But I think your hands knew to fancy me before your mind did
Tripping
We kissed
For hours
On the hood of your car
And the world was melting away
But it really was
Melting away
Tripping
And it didn't take too much
To fall
For you

Be a soldier
**** men
Be a hero
Be a civilian
**** men
Be sentenced to death by THE man
No no
Let me clarify
It's okay
When the man kills the man who kills the other man
Because we can't **** the men in OUR great country
Treason
Just the men of OTHERS
Loyalty
And I think of it like sibling rivalries
Ganging up on one another
Under the same roof
Now
Let me tell you of the greatest country in the world
Settlers
Brave souls who had to evict the native Americans
Because only savages don't have guns
And resistors did die
But we won our land
(Christened in their blood)
Grabbing at it like pocketed gas station goodies
And it was easy enough
To suspend your conscience for long enough
We learned
So last week I decided to walk into the nicest house I could find and claim it mine
It didn't work
Maybe next time I'll bring my guns
And as their fear becomes my power
I don't know what I'll become
But I think Niccolo put it best
Better being feared than loved
So we point our nukes at the bad men
The ones that live in the less civilized  (less american) parts
Because violence is NOT the answer, kids, but war is
Civilian
If you wish to ****
Go buy a gun
And **** yourself

I am not a happy ending
Don't look for me
In a smile
Or a laugh
Look for me
In blank pages
Tire tracks
I am not a happy ending
I am not wistful coffee break talks
But shattered glass
And you may see me glisten
You may hear my siren songs
But I am not a happy ending
I am your daddy's old corvette
That we drove to collapse
I take all passengers
And I am collapse
I am not a happy ending
Don't talk to me sticky sweet
Boy back away from my flames
I am liberation
Would you try to catch the wind?
Well I am not your happy ending

Maybe if I'm buried beneath these sheets long enough
I'll melt into them
Chained to the bed
By a fatigue dressed in fuzzy pink handcuffs
With your name scrawled on the side

Ravaged the light from me
So if I don't see the sun for long enough
I'll convince myself I'm not real
A figment of someone's imagination
Sent to tell them their taxes are due
Their fly is undone

Convince myself that if I stay still for long enough
I'll slow my body to a leaking faucet
Lethargic sleeping pill slow motion
My heart will beat the way I imagine yours does


buhhh





boom



What a heart you have




buh



boom



A beat
As though living is an art I could just master



buh




boom


Like loving was the art you couldn't grasp



buh




boom

Maybe if I dream about you enough
I'll stop having these nightmares about being alone




buh




boom



Or maybe if I peer over the edge of the bed
It'll look less like a cliff than I thought

Buh


Boom

Maybe my feet could find the floor
You once swept out from under me

Buh Boom

Maybe I will stand without your hand to steady me
BUH BOOM
Maybe
I never needed you much at all

Unrequited love is a funny thing
Torment
I'm glad you've let me feel it
Ghost like whispers in my ear
Tell me I'm only good for a ****
Tell me to **** you up or be gone
All more material
And you'll find yourself in my books some day
And you'll remember your favorite bootycall