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himehh dinero Mar 2014
they promised me tomorrow so they could give nothing today
they looked me in the eye just so they spit on my face
a block of ice forms where their hearts are suppose to be
last thing I remember saying was "I have a dream"
but dreams don't exist when your colored and your poor
the nightmares of reality overwhelm me
I'm not home, this is not where I belong
himehh dinero Mar 2014
my life revolves around lies
but I continue on but with a heavy conscious
I can't get out my mind how I told a little boy, starving for food, I didn't have spare change
How I would look at the world and tell it everything is ok
But in reality that's just it, my reality is a lie
I find it harder to sleep telling her I love her meanwhile I don't
You I'm more complex then the average man
I'm a never ending series of doubt and reason
Reason for doubt but only in myself
I can't stand what I've become
It's today the day I change or do I wait for tomorrow only for the day after to come
Physically and mentally I'm drained
somedays it's seems easier to stay in bed all day
With the flooding of thoughts and past aggressions
But then I think to myself who am I
I am the man I'm chosen out to be
himehh dinero Mar 2014
I'm so trapped
like the walls are closing in on me
I don't know what to do
I have years of resentment building up inside of me
like a volcano or a angry black man
I push myself through the day
but my soles are starting to wear out
my soul is starting to wear out as if it's coming out of me
where do I turn when I can barely tell my left from my right
himehh dinero Mar 2014
?
what
what is
what is happiness
what is happiness to
what is happiness to me
what is happiness to me when
what is happiness to me when I'm
what is happiness to me when I'm dead
himehh dinero Feb 2014
the universe is calling for consciousness




  
    and I have exactly what it needs.
himehh dinero Feb 2014
a friend once told "come with me"
I didn't know how to react
you see I've spent most of life hiding from the light
I would spend my day absent
in darkness and in time
there was no hope of liberation for me
truth is even in the absence of light, it would still find it's way to me
but always blocked by the who, what, why, when, and where
it was up until I realized the because
Because of my fear of not knowing, and knowing that my fear would prevail and overcome me
I built a wall, mentally and close to physically
but that the old me,
I've found the light that takes me to the presence of other
so I grab my friends hand with grace and diligence,
ready for the truths of life
that the presence that surrounds me is something greater then all of us
just me as I am
himehh dinero Feb 2014
physically I'm dead
mentally I'm distraught
psychologically I'm me, I am

as my means to find an ever lasting eventuality
I find my in abstract reality
I can't explain my means because I'm not sure of the end
is this the end? or the beginning to the end
hate has overcome me as the prevalent question in my life
why does it exist through me and why love so afraid to show
the answer doesn't lie far from truth but I'm afraid I'll hate it so much that my only means left would be my end
the end.

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