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504 · Mar 2021
Jew
indecentmaria Mar 2021
Jew
Isang linggo
Isang daan at dalawang pu na oras.
Mga salita mo'ng buo.
Ang bumuo sa puso ko.
Natakot ako na baka hindi ko masuklian
Nakalimutan kung papaano.
Umatras, umayaw, nag paalam ako.

Nanatili ka. Sumugal ka.
Sinabi ko, hindi ko pa kaya.
Ayaw ko pa, pasensya na.
'Di ka na muling nag tanong.
Unti-unti ng nawala
Ang mga salita mo'ng bumubulong
sa puso kong umaambon.

Nainip ako, nag hahanap at nagtatanong.
"What went wrong?"
Mga salitang lumabas sa bibig ko.
Ang salita na gustong itanong sa'yo.
"I'm just trying to make you feel the same way you made me feel." ang sagot mo.
Natauhan ako. Naiiyak. Naguguluhan.
Nasasaktan. Nag-kukunwari na okay lang.
"Naiintindihan ko. Pasensya."
'yan lang ang mga salitang binitawan ko.

Nagpaalam tayo sa isa't-isa.
Paulit-ulit na paalam, pero bakit?
Bakit pilit tayong bumabalik sa iisang pahina?

Dumating ang Marso,
Kinausap kita.
Nagtawanan pa tayo. Kamustahan.
Hanggang sa humingi ako ng patawad.
Pinatawad mo ako.
Tinanong kita kung meron pa ba, pwede pa ba tayo?
O huli na ba ang lahat?
Limang oras tayo'ng nag-usap.
Limang oras na nagkukulitan.
Nakikinig ka pa rin sa'kin.
Ganoon pa rin, parang walang nagbago.
Pero di mo pa rin sinasagot ang mga tanong ko.
Kung pwede pa ba?
Tinanong kita ulit.
Paulit-ulit.
Hanggang sa nabitawan ko ang salita'ng
"Mahal kita"
"Pasensya ka na. Meron na akong iba."
"Mas mahal ko siya."
"Gusto ko lumigaya ka. Pasensya ka na."
"I already have mine."
"Kung kailangan mo ako. Nandito lang ako."
At yan ang mga sagot mo.
To Jew, probably this will be my last message for you. Paalam. Gusto ko rin na lumigaya ka. Mahal kita. Hanggang sa muli.
370 · Jun 2018
Still You
indecentmaria Jun 2018
the truth is, if i could be with anyone..
it’d still be you.


always.
#love #nostalgia
368 · Apr 2018
With You
indecentmaria Apr 2018
With you
it always feels like home
always feels right
with you
It always feels right to love again
and risk everything that I have.
you are worth everything Baba. <3
328 · Apr 2018
UNTITLED
indecentmaria Apr 2018
I don't  want to spoil you with material things
I'll give you poetry
I'll write a hundred thousands of words
about how much I love you
I'll make you immortal in my own world.
245 · Apr 2018
WARNING
indecentmaria Apr 2018
They warned me about you
I didn't listen
Now, I end up being this broken.
If I only listened to what they are telling me about you, it would not hurt this much. But then again, I didn't regret for letting my guards down coz regretting those 12 months with you is like regretting that I allowed myself to feel real happiness with you.

Baba.
196 · Apr 2018
HOME
indecentmaria Apr 2018
I never thought that home is not always a place
It can be a person too.
we may separate ways. But, you will always be my home.

Baba.
190 · Apr 2018
You
indecentmaria Apr 2018
You
My heart aches every time I write poems about you.
156 · Apr 2018
UNTITLED
indecentmaria Apr 2018
Last night,
I saw you in my dreams
you were telling me you loved another girl
now, my heart shattered into pieces.
I wish I were her.
120 · Mar 2021
Kabila
indecentmaria Mar 2021
I know it's not right, but when I'm with you, it feels so right.

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