In the comfort of my bed
Wrapped like a burrito in one million blankets
I heard a creak at the back sliding doors
Thinking nothing of it I drifted off into a daze
Waking up to a burning sensation where there shouldn't be
As I try to turn over
I am grabbed by the waist
I wanted to scream
But my barbwire filled throat didn't make a sound
Tears streamed down my face
"You're okay, you should embrace this feeling," he said
His grip got tighter
I felt the oxygen run out of my lungs
The ******* I couldn't withstand any longer
I tried to move but....
I was so in shock I couldn't
My fuel in my engine was empty
I had no energy
His breathing got heavier &faster
He put me where my back was towards my mattress
His movement was faster & harder
This sinful sin he was committing
A child I'm just a child
I gained the guts to finally open my eyes to see this monster under my bed
As soon as I saw him my face went white & I crashed









Tomorrow:
I saw my monster again & I was ready

the lady hath called me h'r cousin








i c r i e d

I was sick when I first met you
I had put on a mask to
cover this terrible cold
I didn't want you sick
Your little arms wiggled &
so did your tiny legs
I looked at you & you smiled
I smiled back
Oh my gosh we have the same nose!
I love you already
I wish a good life for you
My step-mom smiles at me
I look at my dad & the water that
once filled my sadness
Filled me with joy
I'm happy your here
Baby brother

sitting all alone on this yellow van we call bus
taking me to a place i despise
you get on & i think nothing of it
you ask to be seated next me
i accept...



i fell hard...


****!!! I fell in love!!!

"Where are we going?"
Said I
"Far far away from her!!"
Dad said....

her
i thought it would always
& forever be her
she grab the heart of mine that
had longed for her love
and ripped it right out of my chest
that she loved so
she was the foxglove not me
she was so beautiful yet so deadly
i was in a coma of shock &
numbness ever since
Eden's garden was all just a trap
she trapped me
slowly being swallowed in this
cave we call emptiness
the only thought i could think of
was that i still loved her
even though she was a foxglove
d e a d l y

I hate it
That feeling
That feeling where you know
you've done wrong
Your throat swells to even think about
the sin you have committed
Eve & Eve in Eden's garden she said
Such a sin!
Why such words are hard to be
spoken at the slightest tone
This felling is lingering in the
deepest part of my gut
Shallow breaths healing this
suffer