I am
incredible, look
at all that I have accomplished / a satisfied smile
flashes at my reflection / anchored / anchoring
when all the world is spinning / round and round

The balloons where white and popping / always popping
disappearing with the loud
sound of your voice / almost spoken / but not quite
conveyed / through your hands / but no more
I am
anchoring / anchored
I am

incredible, look
open your eyes and look / I tell myself
as I cry myself
to sleep.

He strikes a match and smoke
Fills the room
Gently spiraling
Upwards
In drunken swirls of white.

The inside of my mouth
Tastes sickly sweet
Cotton candy
And iron,what
Have they been feeding me?

Forced friendships
And forceful
Interactions, I look
For a means of escape
But the florescent lights glint
On the collection
Of bottles sitting
Abandoned
On the grand wooden table
Catching my eye
Catching
Me in their trap.

Mindless talk
And thoughtless comments
Create the fabric of our current universe
Constellations of blood ties and big
Black holes
Inescapable.

The aluminium folds
Under my able fingers
As I shape it to my
Will
My own tin man

I did not choose you
To be so heartless
Your purity lying in
The utter
Emptyness of your chest

And I, being the human I am
Constantly unpure and purifying
Find comfort in your
Sinlessness
Your inability to right me

No hope rises around you
And no shiver runs down my spine
At the touch of your cold skin
Frictionless
No strings able to attach.

Tomorrow - I will not
Be able to keep my eyelids open
Tomorrow - I will sit through
Hours of futile answers
Which test my ability
To hold my head above
The waters of the sea
Of life.

Today - I cry
And try
To sleep
And try
To calm down
And try and try
And fear tomorrow.

The darkness advances
As my foetus like form
Wishes to be

Reborn and leave
It's past for the future
Just not now

Just not today
Today is a good day
Inflicts physical pain

Onto the recent
Disfunctionality of my chest
As my bed acts

As a life boat
Trapping me in it in order
To live, I

Called you last night
And hung up immediately
And went back

To my pillow
Cause for you
*Tomorrow is even better