Vitis Lio

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

I look at their names
Written one next to the other
And smile because
There's nothing else to do.

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

I always saw friendship
As an eternal struggle and
You were most willing
To let me in, made it easier
Invited me over and
Showed me yourself or
At least a part of you
That allowed me to enter
Further and we would
Make music together and
We would spend hours
Talking and I miss you
More than before because
It seems that even when
You are there we are not
Together and though
You were my first victim
I seem to be losing you
In the fight.

I want to fix this - can we try?

For R.E.

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

Safe House

I felt safe
Encompassed in his arms
After days of feeling
Lost and scared
Finally I was in a place
I didn't have to be afraid
He was warm and his hair
Fell upon my face
Got into my mouth
Somehow comforting
Not letting the world
Harm me in any way
And I was too relived
To be properly grateful.

"You're one of my best friends, you know that?"

For W.B.

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

The Sole Human

Everyone shared their own experience
And I realized how
Self centered I had been
How self centered I am, how I
Stick my head into my own problems and
Forget that others are not
Asexual inhuman beings
That others have problems, have feelings I
Cannot fully comprehend,
But I must try, I must
Raise my head up and remember that they
Are just as human as I am,
Though to be honest, right now
I kind of feel like a monster.

For my class mates and for our newfound couple. I apologize.

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

My Nighttime People

I am a morning person surrounded by night
Time people, with whom I have become one
But still the conflict stands
I am torn inside between night and day because
If I go to sleep, when will I see them again?
But in the midst of my chase
After nighttime people
I seem to have lost myself.

For The Herd

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

Smell

They talk about
Each other's smell but
The one with the most
Distinct smell cannot
Do so herself, she can
Never know how good
She smells, how much
Like her, just like she
Refuses to understand
How amazing she is
Although everyone else
Can see it.

For R.S.

Vitis Lio Mar 2014

Wonderland

I dive headfirst
Into a wonderland
                     Of my own making
Into the wishful thinking
                                                                  That is its creator
                                    Cutting and sticking
Pieces of my life
                                     Until they envelope me
                                                                      In their being
In my being
                          And I am surrounded
Unable to escape
                                                            Myself, the place from which
All try to constantly
                                                                        Escape, I am trapped
                        In the whole I dug,
And fell through, into
                                                                              Wonderland, I
   Am my own wonderland
                                       And I have made a choice
                                                                 To enter and come out
Sane.