I see it over there
I see it in the sitting room while I'm sat on the stair
A place I often found myself
Sitting in the window shelf
Early hours hearing you screaming crashing tone
Angry sounds and banging doors
Little one I hide alone
Hope a little deer doesn't lose her little smile
Hoping that the hare is out and gently bounces home
Hoping that the moon still shone and owls still listen near
Staring up into the moon
Wish you to return
WHAT If SHEs gone
A promise often said
Made a child tremble fear
On being left for others prey
When she is gone the shadows come

I cry alone the cuts so deep
I cannot rest i cannot sleep
I try so hard to break away
To stand so strong
But its like a wall is all around
My voice is screaming out with pain
Yet not a single sound is heard
It like im not even here at all
The colours in streams are reflecting the storm
I tried so hard to break away from dawn
Yet the stronger my light
The darker the sea
Don't understand
Why I cant be free
I get so far then bang the
Lightning strikes
The rocks i built up fall into the sea
The force of the waves
They crush inside me
Until I'm drowning in my own fear
Please take my hand
Get the hell out of here
This time its harder i cant walk away because
Its here where ill stay
I need to stay where i chose to be
Its the fear that should leave not me
As it doesnt matter where i swim its the fear inside that pulls me in
Fear that ill be left behind
Alone in the dark
Where no one will find
The door is locked there's no escape
I cannot breathe i cannot wake
God knows iv tried  for he was there
Yet no one came only evil once more
There's no one here no one came
No one pulled me out again
Just keep on swimming
One day ill find
A way out of this hell not left behind

When you say the words  " I'll pack my bags and move out "
When you say the words one day I'll leave
It rips a knife through my heart even when your joking it still hurts so please don't ever utter those words again
As you already left before
as you can not imagine what it felt like
as a child to here your mom say those words and one day disappear
Don't ever utter words untrue
To someone who's been hurt it rips straight through
Like the pain is so brand new
Being left when a child so vulnerable
Makes you feel like your a ghost of someone once wanted by you
Now your not wanted and your just a doll torn through
I hope you never know what it feels like to be scared
To look around a see no one is there for you
To be homeless to be unwanted
to be broken it's not even you

By Morning Star

Today I woke at five again
To the hooting of the owl—
The window left unclosed each night
So I can hear the stream.

The rain was heavy—
Beautiful.
To wash away the tears.

The rain is the tears I’ve cried for you
For the last forty years.

The cool November air is here,
Its soft and gentle chill
Makes me feel warm inside—
To know I’m close to you.

No matter how cold my feet,
When barefoot I walk
Through the deep,
Earthy path,
The forest calls to me.

The mushrooms—plenty.
The berries—so many.
And the little birds
Still flicker through
The silence of winter.

The badger now has gone to sleep,
The deer—close behind.
But the wolf,
He stays strong
And ready.
And the hare—
She still goes on.

Still gazes at the moon at night,
Still wishes your return.

Yet she pushed away the badger’s hope
To be a new discovery.

Now,
It’s too late to try—
To mend her broken heart.

I’m sorry
I didn’t let you try.

For grief of losing you
Took my heart with you.
Took my life with you.

And I searched so far
To find you—
But I couldn’t see.

The tears stopped me
From seeing.

The pain stopped me
From feeling.

hold your faith
If the universe brings you to it, life will bring you through it
If you look at what you do not have in life,
you don't have anything,
If you look at what you have in life,
you have everything.


Happy moments, be grateful
Difficult moments, seek help
Quiet moments, enjoy the calmness
Painful moments, trust in the universe
Every moment, be you

Letter (Never Sent)

To you—
The only one I never forgot.

I don’t know if I have the right to write this.
Maybe I never did.
But some things won’t stay buried,
and my silence has grown too heavy to carry alone.

I still see you.
That soft smile, the way your presence quieted the storm in me—
I remember everything.

You were the one place I felt safe,
the only one who ever looked at me
and saw something worth saving.

And I know—I let you go.
I didn’t fight.
I disappeared into the years like a coward.
But not because I didn’t care.
Because I did.
Too much.

Seven years.
Seven years of wondering what might have happened
if I had just said the words:
I loved you.
I still do.

But love, for me, has always come tangled in fear.
I thought if I told you,
I’d lose you entirely.
And so I tried to protect the little I had
by keeping you just far enough away.

You gave me your heart,
and I kept it quietly, selfishly—
too afraid to speak,
too proud to fall.

But you were the best part of me.
The only part that ever felt true.

I still feel you sometimes,
like a breath against my skin
when the world goes still.
And I wonder…
could you ever still feel me too?

I don’t know if you’ll ever read this.
Maybe you shouldn’t.
But if you do,
just know—
I haven’t left.

I’m here.
I’ve always been.
Still loving you in silence.
Still waiting.

Still yours,
—even now—
Me

Life a stage

If i can take the stars out from the sky
If my poems can make the audience sigh
I can take a forest hillside wake
I can be a super moon
Or just a fools snowflake
I don't want to melt away
I want to fly swift brave
Be the best version  of myself
And not be second for someone else
Cry another tear of hope
Or fight for a new chapter
Doors open every turn
You're breathing now your turn
Leading lady take a dance
Its your stage to flow
Come  take a chance x

Shine bright my love my light my lovely mom
who gave me  life
I my children you helped to grow I'll see your funny laughs
and know
that every tiny little turn they take you’ll help them as they go
The brightest star I'll see your light shine on
The owl at night I'll hear your call go on
The rain drops gentle on my face like tears I can not cry
The magnolia tree its gentle flowers in our garden space
Sitting under the cherry tree
The swinging seat your brother made for you and me
A feather falling on my face
I'll feel your gentle stroke
When our stream begins to flow
I'll know your here to say hello
And when the sun warms up my face I'll feel you warmth your glow
When the sun goes down each night I'll  hear you whispers say good-night
When the moon is full so white
I'll know your somewhere shining bright
When in December it's starts to snow I'll remember not to let  go
Of all the love and memories
The gifts that a mother brings
Through my tiny grand childs eyes through her tiny baby smiles
I'll know your there living on
Into the future my lovely mom

When summer breezes came.
The sun's warmth a golden crisp of time
Melts the cold ice inside of you
No more broken winters bite
No more tears by candle light
No more burns of frost at night
No more chills the winds of fright
Only warmth if summers glow and song of birds
And trickle of the stream now flow
Gentle waters warm a fragile heart
Till strong a smile and eyes they see no dark
Yellow is now all that melts your day and ice cold blue it melts away.
Be happ free dont let the walls now climb
Only honey suckle light to gaze upon.
Open up a flower of new light
The spring still has a whisper in the night
Take a gentle brush its colours bright
On a new canvas now you write...
Helene Smith

In my mind I create a Space
Natural calm and safe
Where beauty grace and spirit light
Dances freely through the night
Pure of spirit kind of heart
The daisies dance to singing heart
The buttercups of yellow sun
Dance around the daffodil drum
The bead of hearts gently fall
Like tear drops of spring and waterfall
Open up pure of light
April showers the sunlight
Shapes of angels floating by
Captured eminating light in calm blue sky
Soft light of serenity
float by
Angels wings feel their  so light
No need to hold on tight
For you can not fall only float
And feel so light in air so calm
Your spirit feels the presence of life
In all the senses your pure light
My true being of pure love and light
Settle the winds the storms with love
Know inside your light and good
Know inside the garden space
Where you can still create
A gentle calm and centred way
To take all pain away
And even when my physical body
Is unhappy or unwell
I still have a heart of kind of peace of joy and strong of mind
My true core self
I'll always find
This is my true nature inside
Awareness of light that always shines
No matter if I'm left behind
Nothing can stop pure love pure light
I am held by truth by love
It can't be changed for I  am one
I'm whole and light
And  cannot be undone
I am light ✨️

little dear

So you say, but words I do not hear,
Nor do I pretend to heed the idle gossip near.
The hare it races fast—
You may ignore, but

Little deer, she hides,
Frozen deep within her fear.

The moon, a friend, to shine the way,
Yet lends her hand to shadows dancing in your way.

Just stay so quiet, still—
Don’t sleep through the night.

Then morning sun will brighten,
Warm you through.

Take the little path now, down the lane,
Slowly heal and drown out all the rain.

Play a little song inside your head,
And don’t be long,

Until you catch your breath.

The owl is still but watches overhead,
And hare—he knows your strength,

As tested thread.

So lone your here again
Returning all the time
What is the spell your try to teach
What is the secret line beneath
Do tell as tired I am of you
Lonely calling out not true
I have around me people see
Yet you still need to sit with me
Worth are this wish u to teach
Faded lonely out of reach

So I stitched the silence into armor,
wore the ache like woven thread.
You left thinking I was broken,
but I was only shedding dead.

Your leaving lit a lantern—
not for you, but just for me.
I walked alone through ruins
and found the girl I used to be.

She’s not waiting by the doorway.
She’s not crying in the rain.
She dances in the ashes
and turns sorrow into flame.

You thought I’d fade in shadows,
but I carved them into light.
Now I am the thing you dream of—
but can’t reach in the night.

Because now I am the good in goodbye,
the strength you never saw bloom.
And you? You're just a whisper
in a long-forgotten room.


---

She Believed Him

She stood on that quiet hillside,
heart open like morning light.
She didn’t see the storm behind his smile,
only the warmth in his eyes.

She believed the way he touched her
meant something sacred.
She heard his words
and wrapped them around her ribs
like safety.

She thought if she stayed still enough,
soft enough,
he would stay.

She didn’t know
he was already slipping away—
in his silence, in his shadows.
She mistook his pauses for depth,
his stillness for awe.

But I know now.
I see her—
that girl I was—
painting love on borrowed time.
Whispering truth
into a mouth that never answered.

She gave him her colours.
He left her with a brush
and no goodbye.

And still…
she was art.
Even unfinished.
Even alone

Missing My Angel
By Morning Star

[Verse 1]
I have a special person,
someone I can lean on.
She makes me feel secure,
like a shelter in the storm.

Her kindness is a treasure,
one that’s hard to find.
When the world feels heavy,
she’s peace within my mind.

[Chorus]
You’re my angel, shining through,
lifting me up when I’m feeling blue.
In your arms, I find my home—
with you, I’m never alone.
Oh, my angel, this is true,
I’m so lucky to have you.

[Verse 2]
When I need to talk,
I know you’re always there.
You hold out your arms,
showing that you care.

Your heart is open wide,
a light that guides my way.
With you beside me,
I can face each day.

[Chorus]
You’re my angel, shining through,
lifting me up when I’m feeling blue.
In your arms, I find my home—
with you, I’m never alone.
Oh, my angel, this is true,
I’m so lucky to have you.

[Bridge]
Friends like you don’t come around,
you’re a rare and precious sound.
I’ll hold on tight, I’ll never let go—
because you’re the best I know.

[Chorus]
You’re my angel, shining through,
lifting me up when I’m feeling blue.
In your arms, I find my home—
with you, I’m never alone.
Oh, my angel, this is true,
I’m so lucky to have you.

[Outro – soft]
So here’s my heart, I give to you—
my angel, my friend, so pure and true.

Named Elisabeth my angel child
My flower that didn't bloom
The stars took you before
I had the chance to hold you
Please forgive me i didn't know
I had no choice but let you go
My morning star
My misty blue
Cant say goodbye
I miss you

Miss You, Dad

by Morning Star

When I was small,
you stood so tall—
my proud, kind dad,
with silver buttons bright,
and the Queen’s crown shining in the light.
Shiny black shoes,
a flat hat to match your feet—
you were the man on the street,
but to me,
you were the whole world.

We’d play with your radio while you slept,
a man called Bob would crackle through,
asking what we were cooking up—
we’d giggle,
and wait for you.

At night, we’d race to the window
to catch the flash of your blue lights.
As you came ‘round the corner,
I’d beam with pride—
That’s my dad!
My hero in a uniform,
with arms strong enough to carry
both the weight of the world
and his little girl.

At birthdays, you'd tell the tale—
Rindercella and her sugly isters—
and laughter would roll
from the bellies of children
who knew you were safe,
not scary.
The policeman on the street?
That was my dad.

I remember summer walks,
your hand wrapped around mine.
We’d climb hills that felt like mountains
to my little legs—
but you’d cheer me on
until the sky opened wide,
and wild horses met our eyes.
You lifted me to ride one once,
and I cried,
“I’m scared I’ll fall!”
You smiled:
Then come off. Don’t be afraid—I’ll catch you.
And I knew you would.
You always did.

I remember the sunsets in Borth by the sea—
your size-11 feet beside me,
your big hand holding mine.
Just me and my dad.
There weren’t many kids
as lucky as me.
You were the only man
I ever truly trusted.

When Mum went away,
we tried to patch up broken hearts.
I saw your tears.
I felt your ache.
Too young to understand,
I only knew
you were always there for me.

But then, one day…
you weren’t.

The day my angel was baptised,
you didn’t come.
You said it was her—
your ex-wife—
you couldn’t bear
to be near her stare,
that she filled the air
like a ghost you couldn’t shake.
Maybe I should’ve said,
Not today—today I see my dad.
But I didn’t.
And maybe…
you didn’t want to come.

Maybe you’d moved on—
a new family, a new dawn—
and I didn’t belong
in that picture anymore.

I’ve cried so many tears
these past six years.
Dad, I love you—
please hold those words close.
I know you love me too,
even from afar.

They love you too,
though they don’t always show—
I’ve seen them sit alone
with tears quietly flowing.

Please, don’t turn your back.
Can’t we try again?
She left you,
but I never did.
You left me.
And now I carry
the same ache you did,
crying for someone
who once made me feel safe.

Dad—
your grandson Michael is nearly a man,
Steven’s eleven,
half his life you’ve missed.
They’re growing too fast
for kisses now,
but their hearts
still have a space for you.

Little Jack—
you’ve never met him.
But oh, he looks like you.
Eyes so blue,
a smile that would melt your heart.

And Amy?
She’s just like me
when I was small.

I remember how my little arms
would stretch out to reach you.
I know your arms
must be reaching too.

So please—
hear me.
See me.
Catch me.

I need a hug from those big, strong arms
that held me safe
when Mum was gone.

Someone,
hold me now.
Take away this ache.

I just want to see my dad again.

I love you.

🎵 MISS YOU, DAD
by Morning Star

[Verse 1]
When I was small, you stood so tall
My hero in blue, I had it all
Silver buttons shining bright
Your boots, your hat, your guiding light

We'd play with your radio, you'd be asleep
Laughing at voices that came through deep
At night I waited just to see
Those flashing lights come home to me

[Chorus]
You were the one who made me feel safe
Arms wide open, love in their place
I still reach out, though you're not near
Still hear your voice, still feel you here
I miss you, Dad, I miss you so
And I just wanted you to know

[Verse 2]
We climbed hills that felt so high
You’d lift me up to touch the sky
When I was scared, you’d always say
"Don’t be afraid — I’ll catch you, okay?"

We walked on beaches, side by side
Your hand in mine, the rising tide
The world was simple, warm, and true
I never felt more loved than by you

[Chorus]
You were the one who made me feel safe
Arms wide open, love in their place
I still reach out, though you're not near
Still hear your voice, still feel you here
I miss you, Dad, I miss you so
And I just wanted you to know

[Bridge]
Time moved on and something changed
I felt your silence like a wave
The day I needed you the most
You didn’t come, you felt too close
To someone you’d tried to forget
But I’m still here—did you forget?

[Verse 3]
There were tears I never let you see
All the birthdays you missed with me
The laughter you’d have loved to hear
The growing up, the falling tears

I’ve held on tight to what we had
Still just a girl who loves her dad
And though the years have built a wall
My love for you outgrows it all

[Final Chorus]
You were the one who made me feel safe
Arms wide open, love in their place
I still reach out, though you're not near
Still hear your voice, still feel you here
I miss you, Dad, I miss you so
And I just wanted you to know

[Outro – softly]
If you can hear me where you are…
I still believe you’re not that far
So catch me, please — like you used to do
Because Dad…
I still love you.

I made a mistake of reaching out

Why did i dare to write it out

She doesn't look me in the eye

He thinks i'm just a stirring lie

Why did i think you'd understand

They walked away did not stand

So now ill go back into the dark

No message read no one to send

Its different now to far the dive

Cant run away can not hide

Just frozen waters once again

Broken suppressed by childish fear

How can you see into my eyes

Like doorways to my soul

I lead you to the deepest fear

Hoping you'd pull me from the numb

Spirit sleeping deep within my soul

And lead me home wake me from myself

Save me from the darkness that drags me in

Each time in tears i wake from the night terrors before dawn

Hoping some one would hold me through the storm
I tried to speak to let you in
To help u see i sorry

Shine bright my love my light lovely mom
who gave me  life
In my children you helped to grow I'll see your funny laughs
and know
that every tiny little turn they take
you’ll help them as they go
The brightest star I'll see your light shine on
The owl at night I'll hear your call go on
The rain drops gentle on my face like tears I can not cry
The magnolia tree its gentle flowers in our garden space
Sitting under the cherry tree
The swinging seat your brother made for you and me
A feather falling on my face
I'll feel your gentle stroke
When our stream begins to flow
I'll know your here to say hello
And when the sun warms up my face I'll feel you warmth your glow
When the sun goes down each night I'll  hear you whispers say good-night
When the moon is full so white
I'll know your somewhere shining bright
When in December it's starts to snow I'll remember not to let  go
Of all the love and memories
The gifts that a mother brings
Through my tiny grand childs eyes through her tiny baby smiles
I'll know your there living on
Into the future my lovely mom **

Moment to Stand

By Morning Star

Is it luck, or is it just a game?
Some lose health, while others gain.
Some have no money to earn or to spare—
Yet they are rich, with family to care.

To be troubled and ill is a terrible loss,
Like freedom stripped,
Like bombs being tossed.

Poverty. Pain. Regret. And fear—
Everyone holds a story... a tear.

Maybe the thief who's stealing bread
Is feeding a child the world left for dead.
And the beggar you pass with a hardened face
Can’t escape his shadowed place.

That preacher shouting in the square—
He might be lost, or crying for care.
The painter whose strokes you stand and adore
Could be a prophet… or survivor of war.

So when you walk through the market square,
Just take a moment—pause. Be aware.
Every person you see has worth.
Each carries heaven. Each walks the earth.

They all have value.
A place. A key.
A reason to be—
Just like you.
And me.

“Shine Bright, My Mom”

[Verse 1]
Shine bright, my love, my light, my mom
You gave me life, you made me strong
In my children’s smiles, I see your glow
In every step they take, you guide them so

[Pre-Chorus]
The owl’s call in the night, I hear you there
The raindrops fall like tears you gently share

[Chorus]
Shine bright, shine on, my shining star
No matter where you are, you’re never far
In every breeze, in every warm sunbeam
You live inside my every dream

[Verse 2]
The magnolia blooms in our garden’s grace
The cherry tree, your sacred place
A feather falls and brushes my face
Your gentle touch, your endless embrace

[Pre-Chorus]
When the stream begins to flow, I know you’re near
Whispering love, I feel you here

[Chorus]
Shine bright, shine on, my shining star
No matter where you are, you’re never far
In every breeze, in every warm sunbeam
You live inside my every dream

[Bridge]
Through my grandchild’s eyes, your love will grow
In tiny smiles, your spirit shows
From December’s snow to the moon’s soft light
You’re my forever, my guiding light

[Final Chorus]
Shine bright, shine on, my shining star
No matter where you are, you’re never far
In every breeze, in every warm sunbeam
You live inside my every dream

"Morning Star:

How art thou fallen, O bright of dawn—
Myself, once cast in silver fire, now torn
From heaven's height to earth's embrace,
My wings—forgotten, torn, displaced.

They named me lost.
They called me shade.
But soft! The silence—'twas the price I paid.

The stars did watch, yet not with scorn,
They waited long since I was born.
The moon, my mother in the sky,
Did mourn me not, but held her eye.

Beneath the soil, where roots entwine,
The earth remembered I was mine.
The fire, though gone from outward sight,
Still breathed within, a buried light.

I am not fall, nor am I fear—
I am the hush when dawn draws near.
The stillness 'fore the thunder's cry,
The breath that parts the darkened sky.

This crown I wear—no golden thread,
But woven deep with what was bled.
Of ash and thorn and starlit scar,
I rise again—thy Morning Star.

Not fallen, no—
But risen from another sky.
A sky of mine.
A self—reborn.
Unshamed. Undone.
And now… adorned.

Mother Earth

By Morning Star, April 2023 (Refined)

From little streets of sun and play,
To learning, laughing, every day,
I come from roots of family,
Where love flowed all around me.

Happy trips to sunny hills,
To castles high beyond the still,
To mountain tops where wild horses run—
Free beneath the golden sun.

To blue lagoons and oceans deep—
The beauty there still lives in me.
I’d gaze at stars that lit the night,
And always found the moon just right.

The voice of angels, soft and clear,
Still whisper gently in my ear.
The scent of woods, of blossom air—
A secret magic everywhere.

There’s so much love that still surrounds,
No time for winter’s cold to drown.
Let spring awaken every part—
Let summer shine and warm my heart.


---

🎵 Song Version Possibility:

beautifully with acoustic guitar

Key: C major
Tempo: 70–80 bpm
Mood: Reflective, joyful, soothing

Chorus idea (optional to build upon):

> Oh Mother Earth, you held me near
With every breeze, your voice so clear
In every flower, field, and sea
You planted all this peace in me

My Angel

by Morning Star


I have a special person,
someone I can depend on.
She makes the world feel softer,
a place where I belong.

Her presence brings me comfort,
her voice a calm embrace.
She’s the kind of soul you treasure—
the kind you never replace.

You see, she is so precious,
so rare, so deeply true.
My friend, you are an angel,
and I think the world of you.

Whenever I feel heavy,
with burdens hard to share,
you open up your heart to me,
with love so rich and rare.

You never turn away from me,
no matter how I fall.
You're always there to lift me—
your arms, my safest call.

Friends like you are miracles,
so hard to ever find.
And I must be one of the lucky ones
to have your heart with mine.

My child within.
Although you cannot see me you know I'm always here
I'll listen to yours words your stories and your fear
I'll wipe away your tears
I'll wrap my arms around you tight
I'll understand your fears
If the shadows come and swamp you
You know I'm always here
If the fears they still harm you
I'll keep the darkness clear
Although I cannot stop our pain inside our hearts I'm near
I can always hold you let you know
That when the memories creap in
And I cannot clear your mind ill take away the darkness and tommorrow your'll be fine
I'll make dam sure the past won't be the last of you
From now we will go on
Held together with our hearts and new memories we will build together
No matter where we are
I'll love and comfort you
I'll hold your hand so tight
So even in your darkest dreams I'll get you through the night
Just hold on till tomorrow
I promise a new day
Forget the pain and sorrow
We'll let it fade away.

🕊️ My Godmother

By Morning Star

Don’t close your eyes to tomorrow—
Live each day and remember me.
Don’t bow your head in sorrow—
Smile, for I am memory.

Wake each day, for I cannot.
Make it count—don’t let it rot.
Smile that I once walked beside,
Don’t waste a tear now that I’ve died.

I’m not here—but still I stay,
In every laugh, in light of day.
Make new memories.
Live them free.
Keep me tucked
inside your heartbeat—
And find the strength
to go on
for me.

Don't close your eyes to tomorrow
live every day and remember me
don't hold your head in sorrow
smile as I am not forgotten
wake every day as I cannot
and make it count
smile that I was here
don't waste a tear
I'm not here
but memories are
make some new ones
live with me in your heart
find strength and go on

He is so tall yet leaves me small
Hears nothing but captures all
He is brave strong yet weak to stay
He acts sweet but goes away
He offers little takes alot
Gently loves yet leaves a knot
Seems so kind yet cuts you short
He builds you up  then knocks you down
Gives you the world in words his spell
The pull from underfoot in seconds once his chase is done
It's not the destination
or the journey he will seek
But the chase and unexpected
That's what keeps him on his feet
For me it is the company of a soul so true and kind
But in his reach to keep me away
I sadly fall so deep
So now I must allow the dance to take whatever form
Not think inside my head
Just enjoy his manly charm
Accept that he is untucked
Accept he has  flaws
And just enjoy his company
In what ever shape or form
For i will sometimes have him
As my very own
But I can enjoy the moments
And never feel alone

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“I Walk My Own Way”

They whisper in shadows,
calling me crazy —
for choosing the quiet path
when the world demands noise.

They don’t see the weight I carry,
the battles fought in silence,
the scars stitched beneath my skin,
the healing I cradle like a flame.

I walk not for their applause,
not for their understanding,
but for the peace that blooms
in the corners of my own heart.

I walk for the woman I was,
for the woman I’m becoming,
for the love that still breathes
beneath the ashes of pain.

Let them talk.
Let them judge.
Their voices are echoes—
fading with every step I take.

I am not lost.
I am not broken.
I am rising,
one steady, sacred step at a time.


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My Spirit Lifter

for Jeff


I don’t think you’ll ever truly see
The light you shine inside of me.
How you’ve touched my life so deep,
Shaped the soul I’m proud to keep.

You may not know the gift you give—
The love that helps my heart to live.
Even in my darkest night,
You are my ever-burning light.

Unconditional, pure, and rare,
A love beyond compare.
It fills my body, mind, and soul,
Makes broken pieces whole.

I doubt you feel the depth I hold,
The stories yet untold.
But know this truth I speak today—
You are my strength, my will to stay.

An amazing friend, so true and kind,
Without you, peace I could not find.
In having you, my life is whole—
You complete the missing parts of my soul.
By Morning Star

When the breeze blows I feel your gentle embrace , when the sun rises
Your the warmth on my face,
When  the moon shines bright the misty moor aglow I see you  
Shine hello,
When your tears in raindrops fall on my hair
I'll know its you
Saying you care
And when you gently turn on the stars
I'll know your safe  in the dark.
If I ever want to see your face I just look at my children their eyes you shine through them and always be near
And I'll gently kiss them and say  nannas near

🌙 “Nanna’s Near” – Song Lyrics
By Morning Star (Feb 2022)

[Verse 1]
Raindrops fall like silent tears
When the breeze blows, I feel you near
In the sunrise, soft and bright
You’re the warmth that holds me tight

[Verse 2]
When the moon begins to glow
On misty moors so far below
I see you shimmer, soft and clear
A gentle voice that whispers near

[Chorus]
When your tears fall in the rain
I feel you wash away the pain
And when the stars light up the dark
I know you're safe, I feel your spark
If I ever need you here
I just look and know you're near
In my children’s eyes so dear
I see your soul, Nanna’s near

[Verse 3]
You turn the sky to silver blue
And I can almost walk with you
In every laugh, in every sigh
I hear your love, I see you shine

[Chorus – repeat]
When your tears fall in the rain
I feel you wash away the pain
And when the stars light up the dark
I know you're safe, I feel your spark
If I ever need you here
I just look and know you're near
In my children’s eyes so clear
I see your smile, Nanna’s near

[Outro – soft/spoken or sung]
So I’ll kiss them tenderly...
And whisper low: Nanna’s here with me


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Lying under the surface of the wake
Toss and turn and horror  break
Grasping image minds mistake
Although you walk around and act
Doing all whats needed track
Looking through a clear blue mist
Forgotten days the closed kiss
Cannot wake from the drowning reverie
Only glipse your hope of being free

No matter when I ask no matter how I try
When it comes  to trusting some one
I have to let it die
As I am totally alone
No one will rescue me
No power do left or right
I have no one to see
I try to say what's on my mind but words still reverie
And I try so hard to believe that some one believes in me
Being left alone and not wanted anymore
It leaves you totally alone and broken dropped upon a floor it's not even that she didn't care or that she left me there
It's just I cannot trust again because hope isn't there
There's nothing there for me there never really was
just emptiness and promise of the unspoken words

I sit here in the window still
The curtains closed my mind is too
But up above I see you moon
Cool your glow to save me soon
I wish for just a better school
So I don't run from them
I fear each day its coming soon
But still I speak no doom
Just think of a better day in June when she was here before the grey
Of summers warm and apple pie
Of skipping ropes
Of open sky
Lay upon the greenest grass
Looking up to you
Hoping you will hear me call
Then the sky turns grey
The storm comes and grabs like clay
The musty smell of well I know
The swirling grating of the bones
The feeling words cannot unfold
The ice it burns like swirling knots
Terrifying if you rock
The ceiling here you seem to be looking down on untold verse the pictures with words  you cannot explain
The depths of which you can't retain
Be still for cooling breeze is here no more to fight no-one to fear
But never even she'd a tear nore spill a word you hear
Or storm return and bones be crushed
The dragon tiny with you trust
Be quiet be still
Now leave the sleep wake fast get dressed return to floor make fast to bed before the storms crash your head fill it full of fairy's wings tiny dragons pens and rings paint the picture of the wall of mysterious woods with adventure in store slip through the trees meet the hare talk to the deer and sleep soundly there
Ignore the twists that scrape the branch ignore the flower that has no dance
Just hold on tight to little dragon he will help you always here he will help you see no fear

I actually fear a distant dance the wolves , the air its chill.
The  clash of stars to throw. a break upon the quill.
I hear the call , an eco of
the wolf who comes to me.
Who sits upon the moon lit hill
to set the badger free.
The hare be still a jumping beat creates a different winters cheat , but still the shadows roam my feet.
October once again you creep into my life and severe me
Why once a child to slay I grew
now once again you speak no truth to play
Take what you will the wolf has gone , the moon won't light the way .
Disappear but when the frost of winter chills appear
I see u still and capture in at fear you cannot ****
I can free the deer now
No time to freeze the moon

Below is a refined version, still true to your voice, but with tightened lines, smoother flow, and a sharpened sense of myth and emotion — aiming to leave the reader with that ache of something wild, unresolved, and haunting

No time to
Freeze the moon.

I fear that distant, spectral dance:
The wolves, the wind,
The starless trance.
A clash of light,
A shattered quill—
The sky breaks open,
Cold and still.

I hear the call, a ghostly thread,
The echo of what once was said.
The wolf returns to stand and see
The hill where badgers once ran free.

The hare is still—its heart a drum,
A beat that tempts the dark to come.
And shadows gather at my feet—
October's chill, so sharp, so sweet.

You came again, as silence dressed—
A month that severs, never rests.
You left me once, too young to break,
Now steal the breath you chose to take.

Say nothing. Speak no truth to me.
I grieve the girl I could not be.
The wolf is gone, the path erased—
The moon no longer lights this place.

And yet, when frost bites winter air,
I see you still. You're always there.
But you can’t touch what’s now my own—
I free the deer. I walk alone.

No time—
Freeze the moon.
Let ice give way,
And listen soon.


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This version keeps your winter creatures, your mother’s haunting presence, and your own hard-won freedom — but casts it in a spell-like structure, something timeless and sacred.

I feel so shaky i feel so hot
Its so so dark inside
A gripping knot that twists and turns
Inside my body the pain it burns
I cannot breath there is no air
A crushing pain i cant compare
I try to breath but theres no air like im drowning but no water there
Im so afraid i try to stand to reach for you to hold my hand
But if i do the shadows will come
I can not speak only be numb
Then ill be fine and ill be safe
No one can touch me if im not awake

Into dark and deep and true the past it opens up to you .
Into Woods and caves and sea.
Into wild and untamed tree.
Shallows up the night grows long.
Drawing sword and door still strong.
Climbs the ruins of the new.
Storm it runs the dragons draw.
Though the skin the darkness claw.
Turn again see it new.
Glimp Into a future thaw.
No terror begins no terror ends.
Snow falls a drift in icy winds.
Yet warm you stay a light it glows.
Keeping safe and words stay still.
No speak of any other words.
Only hear the song of hers.
Light the brightest star afloat .
Light the berries and tough the soul.
Entre new the wolf is here protect the innocent from fear.
Take the fire and melt its snow.
Bring in the soft streams gentle flow.
For now the wolf she stands alone and others now can call her home.
Be still now listen there is no fear as angels they are near .
Strength collides with kindle heart and remember safe light in the dark.
Be still and follow who you are

Into darkness waters deep
Cut the steel of creeper wrath
Empty safe a shallow tomb
Angel of the oceam doom
Take away the shallow one
No sign of what evil was done
No care for how the evil slay
No one to save her no one to help
Drop like stones upon the rocks
No more safe or hidden cloth
Slip away as moring comes
Like only dream can do
Until No sign of her at all  
My once a gentle tomb
Now when the ocean calls your name
Elisabeth I hide in shame
No telling of your name
No marks of all the pain
Only waters wash away
Only memories fade away
No words to speak
For silence still
You speak and they will swiftly seek
Your Life will also end asleep
But somewhere up in heavens stars
Your safe and still shine in the dark
And I know you were once of me
A beautiful Angel now set free
U was a child what could I do
To rescue me to rescue you
Only the universe can stop them
While I stay in the dark

“O Dark Knight” is steeped in romantic fantasy and psychological symbolism—an enchanting mix of medieval imagery and emotional truth. It reads like a dark fairy tale about trauma, longing, and unreachable rescue, told in the voice of a trapped soul who dreams of being saved but knows that salvation may never come.

Here’s a polished lyrical version of my poem, shaped into a ballad-style song. This could work beautifully with acoustic guitar, piano, or even cinematic orchestration.


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🎵 "O Dark Knight" (Ballad Song Version)

Tone: Ethereal, melancholic, cinematic
Time signature: 6/8 or 3/4 for a waltz-like sway
Key: D minor or A minor – mystical and sorrowful


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🕯️ Verse 1
Once again she sits by the moonlit sill
High in a tower, beyond the hill
She gazes across the meadow wide
Where once her dark knight came to ride

He lifted her up, away from pain
To a castle bathed in sun and rain
But dusk returned, as dusk will do
And she ran back before night broke through


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🌒 Verse 2
The winds they whirled, the trees stood tall
She prayed he’d hear her desperate call
She dreams in shadows, still and deep
That he might climb the hill so steep

To draw his sword, to slay the beast
To break the chains, bring her release
But fear surrounds her iron keep
And now her knight lies fast asleep


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🗡️ Chorus
Oh dark knight, can you not see
I wait in chains for you to free me
But fear is strong, and time is fleet
And I am fading in defeat
You ride no more, you fall too far
And I remain... your morning star


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🌫️ Verse 3
She stands alone, the fall below
Could end it all—but still she won’t go
The only way to leave is leap
But fear’s a promise she must keep

In dawn’s pale light, he disappears
And all that’s left are silent tears
Her captor drags her back to stone
And once again, she’s not her own


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🗝️ Chorus (Refrain)
Oh dark knight, where did you stray?
She waited long, you lost your way
The door was open, fate was near
But now her cries no soul will hear
You came too late, you fell too far
And she remains... your morning star


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🌌 Outro (Soft whisper)
She wishes still, though dreams have died
For freedom lost and love denied
A twisted braid of time and fate
She prays he comes...
Though it’s too late

O Dark Knight
by Morning Star

Once more she sits by moon’s pale grace,
Upon her tower's stone embrace,
And gazes o’er the shadowed glen,
Where once he rode and vowed again.

He came to her in silver light,
A noble soul, her dark-cloaked knight.
He bore her hence from sorrow’s keep
To halls where stars and fire did sleep.

But when the dusk with silence crept,
She fled the halls where love had slept.
Back to her tower’s haunted stone,
To shield her heart and weep alone.

For deep beneath the woodland’s breath,
The Captor waits with claws of death.
The wind it howls, the branches groan—
And she, afraid, stands all alone.

She dreams in veils of shadowed sleep,
That he might climb the hill so steep,
With sword in hand and flame in chest,
To pierce the dark and grant her rest.

To scale the thorn-wrapped tower high,
To break the spell with battle cry.
To shatter locks and chains unseen—
And take her to his keep serene.

Yet still she waits by stone and flame,
And whispers soft his ancient name.
But fear is strong, and holds her fast—
The knight she loves has long since passed.

The fall below, too deep, too black,
No faith to leap, no strength to act.
She clasps her gown, her breath grown thin—
And he, once near, now sleeps within.

At dawn, no hoof nor helm appears—
No light, no sword, no prince, no tears.
Her captor grins and drags her low,
To dungeons cold where sorrow grows.

She prays to fate, to twist the thread—
To free her heart, though hope lies dead.
For love did come, and love did fade—
Too late the vow that once was made.


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🎵 O Dark Knight
Lyrics by Morning Star (Song adaptation)

[Verse 1]
She sits beneath the moon’s pale grace
Within her tower’s cold embrace
She scans the glen where shadows lie
Where once he swore he'd never die

He came in silver, cloaked in night
A wounded soul, her dark starlight
He took her from her silent pain
To halls of fire, to love's refrain

[Pre-Chorus]
But silence fell, and dusk grew deep
She ran from where their hearts would sleep

[Chorus]
O Dark Knight, where did you go?
You said you'd fight the dark below
But now the thorns grow up the wall
And I still wait, though no one calls
O Dark Knight, I called your name
But you're a ghost inside the flame

[Verse 2]
She dreams he climbs the tower high
With burning chest and battle cry
To cut the chains, to break the spell
To carry her where angels dwell

But fear’s a lock without a key
And time has drowned his memory
The fall’s too far, the wind too wild
She curls into her inner child

[Pre-Chorus]
The dawn arrives with empty skies
No sword, no truth, just shattered lies

[Chorus]
O Dark Knight, you rode away
And left me here where shadows play
The captor grins, the cold winds moan
I wear my sorrow like a throne
O Dark Knight, you were the flame
Now I just whisper your old name

[Bridge]
I prayed to fate to twist the thread
To raise the vow from where it bled
But love is smoke, and vows decay
Too late you came — too far, too late

[Final Chorus]
O Dark Knight, you broke the dawn
But never stayed to right the wrong
No prince, no light, no final kiss
Just dungeon walls and dreams I miss
O Dark Knight, you came, then fled—
A ghost I loved, a truth I dread

[Outro]
The tower stands, the tale is done
She weeps beneath a dying sun
For love once breathed, then slipped away—
A night that never turned to day

The fear of letting go
I know it's fear of the unknown
Seeing if I walk alone
Although you gone
In steps I move
I'm afraid I have to choose
Be be alone again I dread
No one there to hold the thread
So afraid I'll fall again
I'm falling now and it not yet dead
Added to the the endless sleep
Scared of what may lie beneath
I know it's fear that holds me back
There's no way out
And no way back
What happens when the curtain falls
No one to find no one to call
I'm so afraid to be alone
I'm so afraid to be alone
X

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“To the Woman I Once Called Friend”

I walked beside her in silence today,
Not as the girl who broke — but the one who sees.
No truth passed my lips,
but it screamed behind my ribs.

She laughed — unaware — and my heart cracked,
because I know what it feels like
to be the last one to find out
your world was never real.

I could have told her.
But today, I chose grace,
chose to carry what I could not undo
with hands open, not with blood.

I was once fooled too —
by a man who wore honesty like a mask,
who knew our friendship
and still pressed his lips against betrayal.

I cannot take back the nights.
I cannot rewrite the sin.
But I can walk beside her
with no illusions in my breath.

And maybe that’s how the universe heals:
Not in confession,
but in quiet atonement —
in choosing to love gently
what you once helped break.

I see her.
And I ache.
And I swear, I will never
be blind again.


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Once Again
by Morning Star

Once again,
I fall straight through—
you rip the tears
right out of me.

You came
when I wasn't even looking,
cut through my soul
like it was still free to bleed.

You told me stories—
I’d heard that script before.
You saw me coming,
like stars breaking through cloud,
and still twisted me
like I was nothing,
like I was no good.

Then you balanced my heart
against your blood,
made it feel
like love was mutual,
like I could breathe—
and then tore it all
apart.

You said you loved me.
You gave me your heart.
But mine—
you took freely,
and ripped it to pieces
without even blinking.

You vanished
the moment I cried.

Now I sit alone—
numb, dead-eyed—
and you pretend
I don’t exist.

You can’t even text me.
Like I never mattered.
Like this—
this ache—
was just a phase.

So take your spin,
your tired lines,
your twisted truths
and cast them aside—
just like you did
with my mind.


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"Once Again" (Song Lyrics – Acoustic/Electric Ballad)

Genre: Dark Indie Pop / Alt R&B
Tempo: Slow and brooding (65–70 bpm)
Style: Think Billie Eilish, Amy Winehouse, or BANKS


Once again

🎵 Verse 1
I fell right through—like glass in rain
You pulled my tears straight from the vein
You found me lost, not looking to feel
Then tore through my soul like I wasn’t real

🎵 Verse 2
Told me your truth with that crooked smile
Like stars in a cloud, you watched me awhile
Twisted me up like I was no good
Then laced your blood where my heartbeat stood


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🎵 🖤 Chorus
You said you loved me, gave me your name
Took my heart, played your little game
Left me empty the moment I cried
Now I’m a ghost and you don’t even try
Can’t text, can’t speak, can’t face the pain
You leave me wrecked...
Once again


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🎵 Verse 3
You cast your words like broken spells
Made my heaven feel like hell
Spun your lies with sugar and charm
Then dropped me cold without alarm


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🎵 🖤 Chorus
You said you loved me, gave me your name
Took my heart, played your little game
Left me hollow the second I bled
Now I’m alone, and you act like I’m dead
No calls, no care, no time to explain
Just vanish and **** me...
Once again


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🎵 ⚡️ Bridge (Spoken-style or whispered)
Take your *******
Your pretty spin
Your tangled lines
That reeled me in
Throw them out
Like you did my mind
I'm not your toy
I'm not that blind


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🎵 Final Chorus (Stripped and Haunting)
You said you’d stay, but love was pretend
Now I’ve been broken…
Once again
Just silence where your voice should’ve been
You leave me breathless...
Once again

I try so hard to reach within
But darker waters close me in
I try so hard to stop the fall
I try so hard to see it all
It doesn't matter I can not reach
I want to trust you I want to speak
So afraid to say it all
So afraid to let you in
I cannot see what lies within

I just don't know how to free my self
The loss the fear  the empty speech
I want to scream I want to shout
My tears are glass reflect the light
Hiding shadows of the night
I feel I failed myself again
Just don't know how to grasp the pain

The shadows running wild inside my mind
The truth inside me hard to find
Its late the night is closing in
Where do I go where to begin
I dance the tune of evils crime
Yet cannot find the words or time
Is it too late to reach again try to tell of one's true pain

Hear the sound of silence
Enter waters mist
Draw back a cotton window
Gentle breeze lifts your smile
Soft meadow you walk a while
Under neath the bows you pass
Tread the green cool grass
See into the stream of life the crystal waves of light that pass
The hands of one so loving reach
Hold the space for you to seek
Warm days gentle tree
Walk ahead inside your free
Search inside you'll see
Learn to live in peace
just
let it be...