I’m sitting in the doctors office
I wait to hear the news
I hope what the doctors says is nice
And what will I choose

Than a nurse smiles at me
She says the doctor has your results
I hope that god heard my plea
I wasn’t even really an adult yet

The doctor looked at me with a straight face
He said its positive
They both stared as if I had no grace
It was just one time being active

My parents said they were ashamed
They thought they raised me better
They said I was all to be blamed
I guess this is my debtor

I told him
He just said it isn’t his
How could he be so grim
I don’t think I can take this

I told my friends
They just looked at me and shook there heads
I wish I hadn’t tried to follow the trend
I wish I was dead

Its been nine months
I am sitting in the hospital
Its the seventh
I didn’t really want to be here at all

They are telling me to push now
It hurts so bad
This process is so slow
Than I was no longer sad

I seen her little face
She was the most beautiful thing I ever seen
I was wrapped in her embrace
Even though I was only seventeen

I am lost
I don’t know where I am
I have been tossed
He told me to scram
Its like I have been hit
And my heart has been ripped out
Its like my throats been slit
Now I have no doubt
When I wasn’t home
I never knew she was there with him
Her hair is so combed
And her body so slim
I walked in with her on top
I told him to make his choice
He looked at me and my heart stopped
As I heard his voice
He said that she was his
And I was not the one he wanted
This is how it is
I will forever be taunted
The pain hurts from inside
I thought it was forever
I was the one that was suppose to be his bride
She was just whatever
She’s been with everyone
She cannot feel his beautiful love
Next time I see her she had better run
Because she’s why I was shoved

I can’t take it anymore
I am going crazy
You’re a bore
Your just so ******

All you do is lie
Your pretty good at it
You just make people cry
I am sick of your ****

Who do you think you are?
Do you think you can lie to my face?
I know about her
Your just a disgrace

I hear what you say when I am not around
You disgust me
I hope you have a melt down
And even your friends agree

Call me what you want
No ones listening
Because your so arrogant
But great acting

So you say to my friends I am the liar
To protect yourself of course
Your just adding fuel to the fire
I wish you would just disburse

I hope you find a girl someday
That breaks your heart just like you’ve done before
But that’s ok
Because I will never be yours

My name is nobody
Because nobody cares
They just walk by without a glance
They don’t see my tears

My name is nobody
Because nobody listens to me
They don’t know I exists
They just care about them selves

My name is nobody
Because nobody likes me
They just hear rumors
They never want to hear the truth

My name is nobody
Because nobody sees my pain
They don’t know about the past
They don’t see my scars

My name is nobody
Because nobody hears me scream
They don’t hear me cry
They don’t know why I did it

My name is dead girl
Because I am a dead girl now
They all say “ its so sad” and “ I wish I could have helped”
They all cry over a me now that I am dead girl but not when I was
…..nobody….

I hate the government
I hate how I can’t marry my love
I hate how we get told were wrong
I hate how the world sees us differently

I hate people
I hate how they look at me
I hate how people call me fat and ugly
I hate how they laugh at me

I hate cell phones
I hate how I sent 1 picture to my boyfriend
I hate how he showed it everyone
I hate how they all call me a **** now

I hate cars
I hate how fast they go
I hate how anyone can drive one
I hate how my mom died in one

I hate celebrities
I hate how much money they have
I hate how they complain
I hate how I poor I am

I hate my boyfriend
I hate how he points out all my flaws
I hate how he hits me
I hate how he makes me cry

I hate myself
I hate how ugly I am
I hate how stupid I am
I hate how everyone sees my cuts

I hate love
I hate how she doesn’t talk to me
I hate how she sees right through me
I hate how she doesn’t even know I exist

I hate medicine
I hate how it makes me lose my hair
I hate how if I don’t I could die
I hate how sick I always am

I hate school
I hate how I can’t pass anything
I hate how the teachers always blame me
I hate how I always have detention

I hate my dad
I hate how he drinks all the time
I hate how he beats me
I hate how nobody cares

I hate kids
I hate how they talk all the time
I hate how they laugh at anything
I hate how the only one I had died

I hate life
I hate how nothing ever goes right
I hate how everyone loses
I hate how I ended mine

I hate test
I hate how I have to sit here and wait
I hate how I don’t know yet
I hate how it came back positive

I hate shoes
I hate how they hit the ground when people walk
I hate how everyone looks in them
I hate how I can’t walk

I hate him
I hate how he lies to me
I hate how he cheats on all the time
I hate how I always forgive him

I hate her
I hate how he stares at her
I hate how she talks about him behind his back
I hate how much she doesn’t deserve him

Thousands of miles away
I wish I could see your face
I know its only been a day
But it feels like your in space

I know your chasing your dreams
But I wish I could chase them with you
And I would cross every stream
So we could be stuck together like glue

I know that Hollywood is beautiful
Because your there
You better be careful
Not everyone is fair

You call me everyday
But its not the same
I haven’t actually seen you since May
But I know your on your way to fame

Someday I will turn on the tv
And I will see your pretty face
Even if it’s the show Glee
Or just a small part on Chase

I love you
More than you will ever know
And I know saying that is way overdue
I will follow you wherever the wind will blow

She sits on her porch swing
Thinking about her former love
She clings to a picture of him
But now he watches from above

She remembers that night he was very stressed
She got in his car
He hadn’t had much rest
And he had just left the bar

She wanted to drive
But he said he was fine
She didn’t know he would never get to arrive
Or that it would end on an incline

He raced down the street
She yelled slow down
They just wanted to get something to eat
He didn’t need to speed in town

Neither one seen the car coming straight for them
Than all they heard was glass breaking
When the car finally stopped it was 12 am
When she woke she was aching

The nurse walk in with the papers
She said that they had saved her but not him
She slipped into a vapor
She thought it was so grim

Its been 50 years now
And the doctor said yesterday that it won’t be long
She kept her vow
That they would walk along side by side again

She slowly set the picture down next to her
Than she seen his beautiful face
She knew she had made the transfer
And all she felt was grace