Swirl in the room
Smoke clouded the frame
Yellow hues tainted laughs
With elegant flicks of a dainty fallacy

Numb like pain
A drip of nicotine
Take the sugar through
Pulling the tear that won't escape
Trapped beneath the blurred haze
Running in no clear direction
Dizzy, laughing
Pulling yourself above the tide
Above the laughs, laugh
Tug the string of thoughts
A simple line of juxtapositions
Soaring above the smiles
Dragged between the lips of Time
The scrapes of burnt childhood
A faint remembrance of snow and rain
Sipping the rain through my teeth
But numb like pain

It was not originally shattered
It was once whole and pumping
Every daring kiss splintered it every way

I will not say it is broken
It still beats
Blood still awakes my nerves

But every new blink sets me away
Their eyes have all blurred together
Fitting every puzzle piece perfectly

It is not their fault
for I gave myself willingly
Though it is much easier to cast a finger
than to be ****** another day

Every breath I take is a drag of the past
But every exhale is a hope for the future
That I have saved the biggest piece for the last

I will not say it is broken
My jigsaw of an *****
but with each touch I was cut
Leaving me running farther away

I can't stop seeing what I do
Rendering my thoughts insignificant is impossible
How cynical is my perspective
The little wrinkles stand out the most to me
But how I interpret them is the problem
I see the halo surrounded by flames
I see the serpent's tongue flicking in the clouds

I observe everyone's hurt
Who sees mine?
Who caresses my mind when I see Daddy drunk?
Who smiles at me when my eyes are swollen driving at midnight?
No one
People are too infatuated with themselves to see me
In my darkest hours of thoughts and constellations,
I see the people.
I can't stop seeing the people and their hurt.
My hand is always towards someone,
Yet there is none ****** towards me as I fall.
This is why the world is filled with hatred and pain.
It isn't the Daddys that are drunk or the Mommys that don't care.
It is the people that see the hurt and aren't there.
It is the people that can't care for the broken winged creature.
It is the people.

I used to search for the perfect words
I can't see a life without them
Without 'love'
Without your name
I can't
Because every syllable that brushes your lips
Every gruff of your tongue
All makes me feel like a piece of a pattern
Sewn into a beautiful quilt
Keeps me warm
But then I learned
Its not the words that make me smile
Its you
Its every thought and reason
Every brush of skin

I used to search for the perfect words
And now I hope to be tongue tied
To let you show me every feeling you feel
Not to contain our love in a simple 3 syllables
To restrict them of our own choosing
We should set them free
And not speak another word tonight

Rancid stomach
I have a bad case
It makes my eyes swell
And my wrinkles crinkle
I thought I was being overrated.
but no one's looking.
Who cares?

I decided love wasn't worth its while
So I severed every stem
And watched as every petal wilted
I scattered the bodies around my heart
Daring any seed to sprout
Now, the trimmers have rusted
And I see the buds

We are set to die
Today
Whether it is written in the stars
Or the fate of our blood
We fought till the end
And till the end she chose you
She haunted me in my last hour
She told me maybe
She told me if
But reality is,
It was always you Brother
I will always be the dead expectations
The secret hero of the night
And I know she loves you brother,
But my love wants to fight
And in our last hour,
She chose you.
Oh how sweet is Death?

Every look in her eyes was a breath
I was there for her when you weren't!
She cried into my chest over my own blood
She kissed me
And I left her not remembering you
How could you come back and take that from me?
How am I supposed to forget lips like those

She is a curse,brother
No, love is a curse, brother
And when I die, it will have won
Though,
Death has chosen me
And for that, I love her

Drag on the cigarette
Where would you like to lie?
Do you believe you deserve that pillow
The grass suits us better

Take a drink
Ill dig up my hidden wine
We will warm through our throat
Through our veins

See you, you've hurt me many times
So don't lecture me.
Ive chose my poison
Time for us to drink

Useless thoughts choke me
Its hard to forget and forgive
Velvet lips smack me around
My swallowing doesn't help
The sun can't hear me
And the sun doesn't understand
His glow outshines me dimming

It was always you,
Clouding my mind with those eyes,
Starring all my dreams,
Awake or not.
You filling my journals life.
You that had me flickering my eyes.

It was always you,
That made me cry.
That took my shove of words.
That took a part of me that I didn't get back.

But now, its him.
And everything is different.

Give me a break.
I am cold but flushed with sweat.
My mind flutters to you.
Is the pain worth it?
Its sickeningly intoxicating
Slipping into a bitter haze

Why is there lies?
Trips my eyes and throat with his tongue,
Dislodges his word jumbles into my ears.
To amuse?
Not even a stutter breaks it.
I see no end for us.
Just false hope.

Love is like coffee
Bitter righteous sweet
Lukewarm perfection
You can sweeten
Stir the milk
But when its gone,
the after taste is horrific
You will have the effects for awhile
Until it wears off
Then your empty

Until I find another you

It took me, captured
There was no ransom
Its tendrils held me tight
I was addicted
Lies and tears muddled my vision
Then, it let me go.
Left me slashed and torn
You licked my wounds
Stood me back up
But for you, I fell again.
And now,
Here I am,
Captured.

We will always be alone,
We will always feel the pain,
The realization that love always fades

We will always search for change,
We will never be tame,
The animal inside lives for nothing.

We will never find the answers,
Stuck in a cycle of lonely whimpers.
The curse of the race.

Tighten that smile yet again
I remember the sand beaten swing
Barges, our secret keepers, glide up
Hold my hand and listen to the creaking

That little trucks buzz
I remember the stump that sent us flying
Our kiss was deadly, but only the truck knows
Kiss me yet again and I'll fly with you

We climbed higher and higher
I remember your rough hands
We smiled at each other and jumped
Letting the water wash away the rush

You pressed up against me
I remember all the pictures well
You kissed me slowly, we were home alone
You took me home smiling

The dangerous river seems less inviting
Its currents stopped their beckoning
The wind feels more like a breath
Your smile ended it all
You mesmerize me

I smile at my thoughts
To which you question
Your tongue searching throughout my words
Your eyes take journeys that will never end
Your hands search me looking for the answers
I'll keep you guessing till the very end