So I believe that by next month I'm going to be the proud father of I hope a baby girl. Only problem is we and my girl can't get a straight answer one doctor says yes another no but they could just do a fast ultrasound and find out instead of running is in a ******* circle. I feel like I'm in ******* NASCAR always find in a **** circle. I don't see how the stand it I'm dizzy and have to ***. I want to be a street race instead. Never going in a circle on a very predictable track. I want to go left and right and eventually end the **** race in one or three laps not 200 making only left turns. My minds always reaching and sometimes I wish I could just rest and have ask my problems just vanish. My religious friends say worth prayer antennas possible. I've tried it and honestly I don't think so cause if god even existed none of the people I know or you know would ever die. We would ask live forever cause why would someone who made us want to take us of this planet? ******* IT!!!!. If I offended I'm sorry I'm just done with this *******. Someone either give me some **** answers or give me some ******* help cause me and my girl can't do it at this current rate.

Still not a poem but I can officially say I'm going to be a father my girl went to the doctors whole I was at work and we are 6 months along and having a girl. So excited.

My deadest fiance you give life to me, you are the light in the dark, when I'm near you I'm nothing but happy, happier than I've ever felt with anyone. You are the reason I smile, the reason I get up everyday and say I'm in love, your my most valued friend, your my other half, my best friend, the future mother of my kid(s), but above all your my fiance and I'll always love you, protect you, care for you, love and nuture you til the day we die. I love you so much you're my world, my shining star in the blank clear night sky, my happy place. My dearest your all I think about from the time I wake up, to the time I go to sleep and even in my dreams and if I could I'd do my life over and only have you as my love because you're the only one worthy of it. I live you and I'm glad you're mine and in my life with out you I'd probably be dead.