I've ruined happiness,
once again blown a hole between us.
Burns and cinders,
until sides are known.
We all wait until the smoke clears,
and again I stand alone.
Watch as you turn your backs,
for the last time.
I can't fix this wound,
anger holds it open,
peels off the scab to reveal what we are.
Alone,
in darkness I try to find my way.
I'll make it out alive,
my body and mind scarred with the words that had to be said.

I fight against my own walls,
try to break free,
try to trust,
to love.
I've been broken too many times,
used,
lied to,
forgotten.
I'm nothing.
Forgive me,
forget me.
Simple.

I couldn't stand another stare,
From penetrating eyes.
I cannot bear to speak the words,
And hear their mournful sighs.
I can't get out of bed today,
I don't want to see that face,
The one with which just one glance,
Takes me to a secret place.
A place where you smiled just for me,
Where there was only light.
A place where no one points or glares,
Or could raise a word to fight.
I can't get out of bed today,
I'll close my eyes instead.
Dream of you and me again,
Warm here in my bed.

There is a monster deep inside,
The confines of my bed.
It's beady eyes, the dark disguise,
That hides its creepy head.
I can't get out of bed today,
It's teeth they gnash and bite.
If I put a foot down on the floor,
It will surely start a fight.
It's horrible horns they point and curl,
It's coarse grey fur, it reeks!
When it moves its sharp claws scratch,
Its old bones moan and creak.
I can't get out of bed today,
Because you'll surely see.
I can't get out of bed today,
Because the monster's me.