dad, he's outside now
under an umbrella, head in his arms
tapping his finger on his muscle
is he cowering right now?
he's hurt and he has been
for a while now at least
but I don't understand
why would he cower
into the confines of
his own arms, his own flesh
does that mean the problem isn't him?
is it us then?
we aren't the greatest of children
little ambition, little to show for what he gave
but i don't think we ever wanted any of this
dad, you had goals, the ambition we lack
you left it all, with no reason, and I know
now you're faced with regret
but i don't think he ever wanted any of this
for brother cares for your happiness,
he's just twisted from the life you gave him,
a life he doesn't blame you for
and
the sisters love you,
they'd give all they can for you,
but sometimes it seems it's not enough for you
meanwhile these exchanges go on...
I'm just scared that I won't live up
to the life you left behind
having no ambition grants me peace of mind
because then at least I know what I am
having no ambition ruins the clarity of my mind
because then I know less of what I am
and right now, you're cutting your hair.
I only do that to relieve myself of what I don't want to feel
why are you doing it?
one shot, first time trying it out with something lengthier