what a let down
what a punch in the gut
what a misinterpertation
what a mistake

what a mess ive made

i understand we just met
i understand we're in different places in our lives
i understand that youre busy sometimes
but what i don't understand is;
how can you like me but ignore me
how can you always make plans but never follow through
how can you play with my feelings like this

do i want coffee or sleep
coffee will help me through the rest of the day
but
maybe i just want my day to be over

so at peace yet at war
so happy yet depressed
so grateful of what i have yet so envious of what i do not

struggling to apprehend the positives
and
struggling to endure the negatives

sitting and wondering if you feel the same
such a fine line between;

over stepping and rushing something that is not meant to be
and
sitting patiently waiting for fate to makes it move

hurry up, i grow impatient yet
maybe ill make my own fate

i know its hard
i know im confusing
but please dont give up