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Sep 2013 · 599
Other side of me
Hayley LaTour Sep 2013
Everyday I try to be me,
I hide the side I don't want others to see,
Every night I hold back the tears,
caused by my fears,
Everyday a new beginning,
Another chance at winning,
An important step I have to take,
Another move I have to make,
I have to keep going,
Even if my mind is slowing,
Life is a big game,
At some point you take your walk of shame,
I've done my shameful walk,
Others stood by to gawk,
I've had my moment of pride,
I wish I'd never lied,
Some of life's struggles I've beat,
They've have been my biggest defeats
Sep 2013 · 586
Grandma Judy
Hayley LaTour Sep 2013
Tears streamed down my face when I saw you that way.
I love you grandma Judy, I will love you everyday.
As my tears raced down my face;
I knew you'd soon be in a happier place.
My love will follow you wherever you go.
Oh how I loved you so.
Although I feel sorrow and hate.
You can’t fight fate.
You told me everything as time passed by and by.
I never wanted you to die.
We did a lot together throughout the years.
It’s time to wipe away the tears.
I want you to know;
I will never let you go.
I know you loved me too.
My heart will always be with you.
Now it’s time to say goodbye.
Until I see you again someday when I die.
Sep 2013 · 462
Becoming a monster
Hayley LaTour Sep 2013
she knew exactly what she wanted
and how she'd get it
not trying so hard
just to make it

she was close to her family
she had their trust
she was the best that she could be
how fast it all changes

it was the blink of an eye
knowing the consequences all to well
she tried new things
she never thought she would

drifting farther from her family
and closer to her friends
trying harder just to make it
she's lost and confused

in life's big game
she doesn't know where she's going
or how she got to where she is
she wants it to end

but then again
she really doesn't
she just wants to give up
and give it all away

she knows how much she's changed
and she's so sorry
that she drifted so far
into something that nobody ever wanted her to be

she knows they love her
but do they trust her
Hayley LaTour Sep 2013
bold** Fires ablaze within my eyes,
A smile concealing all my lies,
Screaming, begging, calling out,
A final, frantic, desperate, shout.

Scarlet tears drip from each vein,
A vehement covet to end this pain,
This silver blade, stays by my side,
Because all hope inside has died.

As each day ends, and darkness draws,
The devil toys, with all my flaws,
I'm helpless, alone, a worthless mess,
A broken child, he must address.

I'm tempted when he calls my name,
A way out, an escape, an end to shame,
To make it feel a lot less real,
A deal with the Devil, in blood must I seal.

They'll say I died of suicide,
But no one knows how much they've lied,
It wasn't a rope, a blade, or pills,
That broke my soul, and gave me chills.

I died inside so long before,
To live each day, an endless chore,
Pills could not **** what was already dead,
A twisted soul, an empty head.

In darkness I wait, in silence, alone,
Rose-tinted nostalgia, all around me has grown,
I beckon the devil, with the key of self-harm,
And I open the door for him, with the blood of my arm
Sep 2013 · 400
Moving on
Hayley LaTour Sep 2013
Moving on
I'll never forget I'll always remember The laughs that we shared 
The dreams that we had 
But those dreams changed
 And they left me sad I know you've moved on 
And found someone new 
But I have to admit I still wish for you 
This isn't healthy for me I really need to stop 
When I think about our past 
My heart wants to pop
So as I say my last goodbye 
I want you to know 
That I'm trying my best 
To learn to just let go

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