Your blue eyes illuminated by the morning sun is a sight I won’t soon forget
Don’t hurt yourself, you said
“You’re too good for that”
How is a sharp blade creating scars any different
Than what you put me through
Text, kiss, ****, touch, adore
I promised you I wouldn’t
But all I want to do without you
Is destroy myself

Night came over the day
Moon shone upon us
Intoxicated haze, people and cigarettes
Red lipstick kisses on your cheek
***** and numbers exchanged
I knew I was being reckless

See me, you said
Kiss me, you said
**** me, you said
Don’t leave any traces, you said
No evidence of my touch
I’m your *****, I thought

Sunday evening turns into Monday morning
The most beautiful morning of my life
Your blue eyes illuminated by the morning sun is a sight I won’t soon forget
That was the last time I saw you
That was the morning I kissed you goodbye

Disarray
You’ve created disarray in my mind
Split my thoughts in two
On the one hand;
Your kiss, melting smile, adoring eyes
On the other hand;
I’m nothing more than your *****
My thoughts; my mind
Everything spinning back and forth
******* with my head
Disarray

I can feel you inside me
Over me, around me
Beside me
My body isn’t mine anymore
I can feel you inside me
Over me, around me
Beside me
Your touch left traces
I remember it all
My body isn’t mine anymore
It’s yours
I can feel you inside me
Over me, around me
Beside me
Can you carry the weight of my soul?
Can I carry the weight of yours?

You've swayed me
Persuaded me
One step at a time
I've fallen, I'm falling
Would happily be crawling
On the floor for you
The closer I get
The closer I want to become
I want to see deep inside you
Watch you come undone
You're a mystery to me
I can't wait to know
All there is to know
About you

I wake up to thoughts of you
Fragments of our last encounter
Replays over and over in my mind
So distant as if it were a dream
The things you said
The things I failed to say
I need to know you
But I don’t know where to begin
I fall asleep to thoughts of you

He wants my body, he wants my soul
I can’t stand to lose control
Maybe he will crush me and leave me to bleed
I can’t stand to be deceived
Won’t believe the words he has spoken
I’m not strong enough to be broken
Can I trust you?
Can I trust you in this?

Am I supposed to get a little bit braver
A little bit deeper
A little bit closer
Each time
So that in the end
I’ll find a shard of my soul
In you
A little piece I never knew was there
You don’t even know
How much you scare me
But the thought of you leaving me
Scares me infinitely more