Scars
They clutter my left arm
Up and down they used to double
triple
Quadruple
they bled
were red
And eventually
scared over.
They did not solve my problems
Just made me stay sane
They made me keep calm
When I wanted to break down
I wanted to yell
I wanted to scream
But all I did was show my feelings
A top my skin
They arnt me anymore
And sometimes I forget that.
I forget that I don't have to push people away
But instead they push me away
Because even though I have changed
my skin remains the same
And that is all they choose to see.

Don't you know
You were my sun
In a dark universe
You were the light
On a cloudy day
You were my sight
When I was blind to see
Why couldn't I see
You were always
the best part of me
and though your away
In my heart you'll always stay
And when I fail to see
I hope the day will come
When you will come back to me.

I remember
A time not so long ago
When I would sit
And write oh so many poems
I would write out my feelings
Write out my thoughts
I would imagine an answer
And talk to my oldest friend.
my oldest friend
whom I care so much about
Is not a person
not real at all
His name is Id.
He knows all my secrets
but I know none of his
He gives me advice
about how to deal
And I can stay safe
knowing he will not tell the world
And he tells me how
how to deal
When I am not sure
How you became mine
And I became yours.

I wonder
In which
The world we live
In all the countries
of all the people
And I some how happen
to have met you
I somehow happen
To have fallen in love with you
I somewhow happen
to have lost you
And with you
Follows half of my heart.
my heart
In all its emptiness
Still misses you.
I wish to be happy
to put on a face and deal
But with out you
my heart only has
so much time to heal

Alone I sit
Alone I wait
Alone I lie
As alone as the sky.

Depressed as I am
depressed as I feel
Depressed as I can
With the memory of you still here

With all my might
And all my strength
With all the tension
I wish I could bring you back

But I am powerless
In this brutal world
Destined for misery
Just as a lonely girl