Keep them with you
I know how hard you want them exposed
Keep it  inside you
Even if it's impossible to survive in their lap
Keep it tightened, very tight
One day when you burst
One day you will definitely burst
The world will hear
So, for now, keep it down
And even if anyone cares now
It is too late

A frustrated affair
Runs through history
The pages burnt
The purity reclaimed
Wars wherein millions burn
The victory declared in the end
Based on who killed more
Where did people die more
The bodies with bullets
Buried in pits and crossed
The bodies where survivors
Put roses at the foot end

A frustrated affair
Coincided the deaths
As death scatters skulls in dust
As death never forgets to come
The bodies which speak of love
Ambitious, power greedy bodies
Directing the soldier bodies
To rip the flesh of common bodies
Thereall bodies and bodies and bodies
A single seed of an idea in the body
The color of the body
The money, the gender
The lover of the body

A frustrated affair
Ignored through time
And instead make kids rot the fabricated
The ones that are written to make sense
To propagate the falsehood
To sympathize with one of the prejudices
Each word, each man, each activity
Each death a matyrdom
Each comrade a traitor
Each lover a promiscuous animal
Each freedom a madness
Each tear a lie
Each word stinks of cold decaying humanity

A frustrated affair
In the present
Soon to be a history
Soon forgotten
Lost in old newsletters
The deaths; simple, complex, accidents
What is then but now
What is not now, will never be
What never will be is the existence
Of truth and honesty, of life and prosperity
The humans populating
The humans killing
That is a prominent animal behaviour, but
Isn't ten percent our cerebral capacity?
PK

I love you because
Love has come to me
Through you
Love was lying somewhere
In an undiscovered space
Love came after the shower
Of your casual asteroid arrival
Love was that explosion
My new place of habitat

I love you because
Love is a simple word
And still holds a plenty meanings
Love is a that soft whisper
You make for no one to know
Love is the complex of feelings
That has left me sick with syndromes
Love is the word I cannot find
When I want to acknowledge you

I love you because
Love has meant respect to me
And I respect men and women
Love with its idiopathy and passion
Has made me a mystic-romantic
The eyes of men, the hands of women
The shirts, skirts, the sweats, perfumes
Since my love can't be held in a person
I hold a billion people inside you

I love you because
I let you go
I found your existence
In the deepest pits of my darkest days
So, I had to tear your idea
But let you hang in paper pieces
Far away in my head
The clutches of my solitude
Scared me I guess
And because I love you
I had to save you

I love you because
Yesterday, I thought about you
Yesterday, I was so in love with you
Yesterday, I was so jealous of you
Yesterday, I wanted to be with you
Yesterday, I suddenly hated you
But hate is love spilled
And hence I love you more
But thence, I also hate you
And with each lovepoem
More I write, more I love you
Pk

I do not belong
In the convents

The wheat, is on me, everywhere
And a foreign language, inside me

Fields of uncertainity on me
They feed, they grow inside me

I think I do not belong
In the convents

Where do I belong? Who am I?
Smell my armpits, that must be I

I lust on my mother's language
I lust to find acceptance of me

I do not belong
In the convents

Am I sorry for my government ?
Am I sorry for myself ?

I crave the vision of unseen fields
I argue for the unaccredited history

But I know I do not belong
In these convents

Pk

How can someone,
As old, as wise, as a tree
As near as my breath
As for me, as I am for me
Hate me, disgust me ?
For my germinating mind
Was a failure

For my insecurity baited
That silly child
Suddenly, so sudden
It guided my mouth
To blurt out
A blurred nonsense
No sense in time, for a person

But how can that arrow
Be so swift and sharp

So precisely on target ?

How hate just clouds years of love ?
Like there was never any sun

Every moment defying nature
Announcing pain
Days, years, gone by

Pk

When your pen falls
From your book into your lap
It is just near your stomach
And then slips swiftly towards your flank
And you try to hold it, catch it,
Milliseconds only and you are anxious
Oh! You hear this peculiar sound
A short soft metalic ringing
Gone! Under the chair or somewhere

You have to rearrange yourself
From the extreme comfort of your posture
To pick up that nasty pen

You have to look at your days
Calculate every bit of their occurence
Try to prevent but still those pens fall

Pk

A path I am on
The one I was scared to be on
The one that's a Frost's road
Different as they call it
The one i was taught about in class
(For the sake of literature
I think)

Difference though is omnipresent
(But for the sake of science i think)
Difference is dangerous
Prevented and taught to that
But still so immense in me
Running, I run fast from it
Still those tiny ants
Ride me and creep on my chest
I slap and I recoil
Not realizing they would bite
Just afraid of a possibility
Under influence of tales of history
Where tragedy outnumbers celebration

Difference that is lovely
A dog or a pet I adore
I embrace it on some units
In cases it makes me revolt
Against groups who think differently
**** differently
And I am proud to insult them
Their inheritance of unevidenced values
Suddenly, though, and mostly
I hit headlights
The dog bites my flesh
I am short of arguments
To support my difference
I am short of theorems
To prove what is right
As I shake my peace flag
Weak in doubts of my wrongfullness

Difference leaves me alone
I am disappointed
I am disgusted
By the different crowds
More even by myself
Difference leaves me alone
Not always
But when does
It blows me down
With contempt and longitude
And i wither back to doubts
Beginning like a shower
Taking up, thunderstorm fashion
That 'I must be wrong'

Differents - hated by many
Maybe because they think it is a disease
Maybe it is going to convert them
Maybe they'd feel isolated
Left alone on a planet
Where everyone is on a screen
Screens might be too many
And you lose your owness
In that melancholy
Maybe scared,
The apparent parental foundations
Blown down to dust, now they mean nothing
The social cycles breaking apart
Storms of worry corrode and perforate
Your soul,
I understand its difficult
As I stand wet at the pavement
Staring at my waterlogged road
(I understand)

I was born with this monster
Feeding on my psyche
Leaving me deficit
Leaving me dumb
It taking my advantage
I taking its name
When i have to name my life
In one word
No matter how much
I tried shooing it away
Putting up acts, masquerads
It's impossible to let it go
It is me, the difference
And I feel like everyone is
Only either I am too insistent
For making my difference
So significant
Or I am a fool
That can't get over itself


Pk

Hang loosely from a stem
Move about with the mildest breeze
Let the leaves of fret fall
Let them, free your grip
Look around
You must see
Your dessication
On your own
The breeze has no time
For your feelings

Pk

Only because love
Was better answer
Did they jump off its cliff

Love, because only
It can hate nothing, even
Love for those who hate

Who hate those who love
I pray probability for them
Of falling for their fair share

Fall because only it
Can flip the world around, and
Death becomes smallest fear

The fear in sobs,
A memory of the beloved
That, the only reason for existence

Pk

When he sent me his letter
I couldn't stop laughing
Super-hysterically

Kindergarten through high school
He was such a creepy, silly kid
But like others, he was on my list
Though, I was under-cover as ever

And you know what he writes me
'Do you remember me, probably you should'

Baby boy,
You are money
And you ain't even aware
No factor to forget

I had known him when his eyes shined like a  bulb
I had known him as he went from peak ecstasy to the depths unknown

I knew him when he was a complete child
I knew him when he would scratch his groin

When his sad lips would dry up
His trembling hands brought
A silver glass closer in a hope
When he was so clear of what he wanted
Next moment so unsure
Next moment so wild
He would run around so fast
He used to disappear
He is my hero
I know him
That's all I am saying

I think it was the Rain
Cause I am not romantic
And also, not afraid of lightening

But it was just a split second
I was in between some arms
And suddenly I was afraid

For the first time
I was not alone in a crowd
I was never this wet

Weather changed the next day
I am a stranger in a room
I think it was just the rain

Pk

You know
I made you know
You can have anything here

Burns from fire
The zealth off an ******
Any stupid fall your crazy head designs

I'll give it to you
As what you desire is no mystery
Pain, pain and only pain, nothing serious

You need it
To live in your hibernation
You need it more than I need you

My love
The determination of my hatred
Is the testimony of my exclusive want

I am the foe
Take me up on the roller-coaster
I swear I'll push you exactly when you want

Pk

The pain downstairs
Was too much to feel
Equal almost to a want
Crushed hence under
The unwanted theory of it

Left alone in some cabin
In an unexplored island
Where love wont devastate
Its honest memory wont hurt
A hurt I worship in secret

Every eye I see cries for me
Every tongue supports me
All are hurt by those actions
Actions which hurt me
Actions which loved me

I may have yelled some
Scratched and bruised pretty
But that time i did not hate
Ain't sure if i loved it either, but
That madness bothered me

At court i sweared holy books
Vomitting out my aggression
Which's easily misunderstood
As according to my family
I am a broken girl

I have but a horrible confession
For i feel dishonored not
I don't feel any shame
Along a life of misery and vain
I went through a consensual pain
Pk

What love gave me
A sweet message
On a scented creme paper
With bold black broad ink
Foreign to my mind

What many gave me
Love unlimited, just given away
Distribution, in sales
What i fail to accept
Is that simply

What love means to me
A mystery i try to solve
I fear finding it
So I feign finding it already

What love took from me
A whole childhood
With a single blank call
A single - that meant nothing

What i give all this, a spit
A wandering headache
But l am a mad cow
I also, crave its appearance

What i want doesn't matter
I do, i did and I'll just keep doing
What was planned years ago
In my parent's dreams

What love maybe
A magic fable
I like hearing it
And I like hating it

Pk

I see him in the fields
His pretty hair, uncombed
Swimming in the wrought shoots of wheat

His smell travels faster than sun
Of dry grains and weeds, bathed in sweat
Of moist soil, burnt by scarlet sun

His colour, a theater of wheat grains
His face, an album of old trips
Different shapes play in it differently

Drowning in the rain of dust
His brows are tired of tightening
Over and over, poor them

He waves me, while trying to stand
On the leg that always refuses
Almost there, it flexes and he falls

The brows relax, reality is welcomed
He apologizes in a low voice
A god in the lap of golden soil

I see him in his garden
Where on his fine knee
He is on a fine soil, fine smile

Tomatoes playing in his hands
Leaves slipping through his fingers
And this fine son, does all he can

I see him in rains, when on one
He concluded what i should like
A fine man with fine two legs

(But) There is this one man i like,
Who smells of wheat,  who has a fine leg
He who ever liked me
Pk

You are a born human
One day you'd be a woman
And you will not feel sorry
In school when you'll get your period shock
Or when you'll feel the tight thing around chest
In college, on roads, the nausea of eagle stares
The bed you'll share, the world you'll walk in
Don't feel any sorry
Just like that apple towards gravity
Its some natural propaganda
A twist, for which you need to be ready

You are a woman and be proud
The flesh between your legs or arms
Is not a shame, don't disgust it
See it, love it
And when you step out in moons
Have some iron in your wrists
To protect it
Dont bow, dont cry, dont be dead
You are the soil of the food chain
Putrefy the animals
Believe in yourself, you are worthy

You are a woman, not a punch bag
A poor drunk unambitious father,
An ignorant mother, a ****** brother
Whatever, no excuses
Nothing must stop you
Love, pity, anger, confusion
Get over these clouds like a lightening
They only rain a while, make you weak
There are enough weak people already

You are my dear daughter
And when you sit in a bus
Someone, anyone can grab you
So be a sassy bitter woman
And punch them in the nose
Let them bleed awhile,
Let the sleeping souls around know
You are not a man epitome
You need no man metaphor
No man hands, just the courage
To bring down the diseased rats

You are a woman sweet
Laugh aloud, open your mouth
As much as you want
Wear whatever you want
Be wherever you want
See whatever you want
Jump, dance, swim, play
You are the tigress in your jungle
And roar like one
Spread the word
You have no responsibility
To please the holy etiquettes
That nurtured those rat diseases

There can be a problem, love
Cause stars never liked the sun
Our kingdom may go in bad books
They can be your family
And they really love you,
Wanting to see a happy crowd around you
They are confused in the crowd
Dont get lost, be smart  
Love them but trick them all
There love should not divert
Your immense potential
The c-sections should not cut your goal
Stop juggling, messing things
Living their life is not your plate
Eat from your plate and dont hesitate

You are a woman i am proud of
Dont ever measure your success
On the world's most used calculator
If someday
You are staring out of your balcony
And in your strong heart
There is no fear, no terror, no speedbraker
In your ears, if tingy thoughts
Dont affect you,
If your hands still want to work
To bring your ideas into life
If you love the woman
The 'human'
You have become
You are a trillionaire
Only your smart mind knows
You need no proof for that

Love,
You are a powerful person
Use the power righteously
Dont hide it or waste it
Or shove it in wrong direction
You are equalist not matriarchist
You need no special que or seat
Separationalism cured flu never minds
Educate the minds, the needful
Your family, friends, neighbours
The javelin not in heads of male supremists
But a place in doubles, a seat at the table
You need no reservations
You need no 'ladies first'

Most importantly, a secret
That no one will ever teach you right
That you'll discover, when you miss the flight
That i always wanted to tell someone
You can be 'anything'
No limits, only the ones you put
Careful not to,
Like a life itself
Evolve and survive
You are a life so lovely
Live it
Come out of the buds
Bloom
So powerfully
That the gods, the ancient societies
Are cringing
Over there decisions
Love,
You are infinite
You are now.
Pk

Are you smelt
And assumed
Are your fingers judged
Where they have been
Are you a girl or boy
A girl who loves being a 'girl'
A boy who is fragile
A boy who hates his established role
A girl who just knows her potential
But still hides behind the men
Cause she has a short stature
Are you religious or atheist
Do you bow your head to get more
More money or more happiness
Health of family or world peace
Are you anti muslim
Or are you anti terror
Are you a sheep
Or Are you a hyena
Are you poor
Or are you ambitious
Do you educate your kids
Or drink Old monks in best sodas
Wake up to drink more, smoke more
*****, block, make others, beat all
Are you queer
Or you dont want to talk about that
Or maybe you are a little queer
Or do you think your best friend is
Do you bully feminism
Do you think this stuff is overrated
And teach your kids to hate it
And beat or **** their abnormal kinds
Cause they are disgustingly beautiful
Do you care about human rights
You care only for your pet
That's the truth
You care for your own pet
You dont care for anything else
You care a lot for your money
In bank, in bed, in shoes
Everywhere but where they aren't
You ever care for the kids
At the front of any parking lot
You ever gave them one millionth
Of what you earn
You ****** hound
Do you care for anything
But your silly rigid beliefs
Don't you get bored?
Or you yearn for a chance
Or you never had the vision
To see what's going on around
I am giving you that one knock
Stand for others, stand for yourself
Want to be in another sorta establishment
Welcome home.

Coping with it
See where my economy is
An empty fridge
I am taking this
And what loss they have
At markets or skyscrapers
I laugh at it
Oh, they lost their wealth
Cant afford some breads
But I am living it
And they take their lives
Leave their wives
To themselves
Like I am to myself
Like i always will be
Look at my economy
Bundling bills
Shedding skin
Scary bones
Water that's not from tap
Drowned my face
How fast it dried
And my soapless fate
Washed and rubbed it
But a loss of life won't stop a life
A loss of skin wont extinct skins
Beauty is filled in the numerous skins
Thence, look for a beautiful skin
And construct the lost economy
Fill the empty fridge
Wash the ***** face with soap
And put off that ***** water
Cause you
You
Deserve a second shot

Shining gold of medals
Or papers announcing
The brilliance of a life
A life
So easily disguised
And somethings
That make your everything
Might be hidden forever
Behind the gold plate
In between those strings
Papers, colored papers, different kinds
Is their a person ?
There is no person
Only a story of a person
Birth is just some evidence
Amongst billions, just a fiction
Thank folks for the elaboration
Pump, kick, pump, kick, giggles
Fire chain reactions
Blow smokes,
Wait
There was a person,
Unheard, unseen, tragic
Little than little things
A chicken in jungle
Driven with tongue bites
And intentions behind those eyes
Brown eyes
Might never be known
Folks, what you like
Only those shining medals
Or papers announcing
The brilliance of lives

I go through a bus
With the tense face
That i always put on
Cause peace is a luxury

The streets do me no good
Much indecisive than me
Every time i walk in a crowd
I dont feel myself

I love no soul
Not even a food
But i lust so much
I am afraid I'll die of it

I drink no water
I throw things in me
I move
Cause i have no option

I write
With my head exploding
With uncertainty
That someone might read it

A zombie in a jungle
My existence
Is a waste of time

Just like it was yesterday
Or a while since I thought
A beautiful boat
A single stubborn oar
Nothing else
Did i ever want

There is this whole water
Eyes looking in eyes
A prejudice
There never is a stronger force

Rushing, stabbing the oar
I hit so many stupid things
Long way to go, to be
No ants but blue things

God is crazy and rains
But I just got a single stick
I'm alone
Wish I had a many, many sticks

I smell trees, I feel wet
Flashing jingles in my head
A shore met
And then I come breathless
Everytime
I come like that

I smile
With tears in my eyes
Its' phenomenal
Their warmth on my cheeks
Just shoots me straight
I look in mirror
I laugh
Very hard sometimes
I count my dimples
They're ******* ten in number
I cry
Stop after some time
I do that countless times
When you ask me why
I look at you like a lost child
I love
My love an appetizer
And actions lazy as poo
I am not a giver baby
I just like eating things up
I talk
Selecting one of my playlist
Cause if if i open my real mind
I may scare you off
So i say exactly what you want
I wish
Every crazy day of my life
Some secret thing i work towards
Quick thing, slow as well
I honestly promise it's not beautiful
I hate
Almost everything
And it grows like a tree in me
Feeds my monsters
I am not good anymore.
Pk