missing my dad is like missing gas to your car it's hard to go on
the things you said to me have left a scar on my heart
why would a dad say that why would a dad do that

After we made love ,we kept kissing like nothing else mattered like the world didn't exist. I left evidence all over his neck that I was there. I love that boy ,I really do.

I breathe in the smoke. It goes into my lungs. My eyes turn red slowly. I began to think. Nothing seems to matter. Everything is okay. He looks at me and talks to me. I start to smile. He grabs my face and kisses me. He slowly kisses my neck. He begins to make love to me. After we both fall asleep. I wake up at 4. I smile and he looks at me. I kiss him and he walks out the door and I go back to sleep.

I sit here in a room full of people with a big smile on my face as the people start leaving my smile goes down until I'm in my room laying and crying.

I'm trapped. I wanted you and only you. I wait for you to say the words that can make me or break me. I may act like I don't care but deep down inside the pain is unbearable as I lay in my bed coming down off the high thinking of you and the way you make me feel and then it all goes blank and I'm back to sleep. Sleeping until the next day ,searching for the next high ,crying over the same guy. I'm trapped.