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Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
My heart is like a total eclipse to you.
I do the impossible just for you.
The unimaginable and beyond,
I can't cry for stupid stuff,
My heart, my mind, and my soul is forever strong.
I am self-conscious and aware...
I'm not lost nor do I need to be found.
My chest where my heart is, it kind of hurts
My heart isn't locked, I don't need a key.

I've been to the moon and back.
My journey
My long journey turned out to be an eclipse towards you.
I'm mentally blocking my emotions towards your kind forever.
No more push and pull,
I don't need you to tell me I'm beautiful
Crushed towards the ground,
Blended and slurred are my thoughts,
I now write my feelings.
No tricks, no more stuck in the mix...
My heart towards you is a complete eclipse.
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
I love you.
Those three words didn't mean a thing,
I thought we were meant to be,
But I guess it was just a fling,
There's a wall around my heart, stopping me from crying,
But there's something inside of me,
That feels like it's dying.
You were everything, I needed, care for,
I chose you, but now my heart is sore,
You will never realize, that you were my best friend too,
but believe me when I say this,
I really did love you.
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death. - See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/5860#sthash.AZ9GFLye.dpuf
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
I'm broken. I have no one.
I will.. never have anyone.
He used me for his own pleasures.
He lead me on to think that we...
had a chance. but...
we didn't.

My heart is broken...
Forever broken.
I was so in love with him.
He told me he loved me more...
Than anything...

They were all lies.
Everything he said to me.
Lies...
And more lies...
Lies...

He was everything I had...
He knew I had no one else...
but him.
I needed him...
but all he did was tear me to pieces.

He made me promises.
He told me he cared.
He promised he would never leave my side.
But he did.
He doesn't care anymore.

He made me realize something...
I am not needed.
I'm not loved.
I'm only to be disposed of.
I have no one.

He told me to forget about him.
To let him go.
But how can I?
After all the promises he made me.
I'm so...broken.

He must hate me.
Look at me.
I'm a mess.
I'm so unstable.
I wouldn't blame him if he hated me.

I wouldn't even blame him if he...
didn't care that I'm about to die.
That's right.
He doesn't care.
He never will.

And for that I...
have died inside.
I'd like to say goodbye.
But to who?
No one.
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
Every day I think of you,
But it’s just a matter of time,
I can’t keep going through life like this,
You will never be mine.

I will forever love you,
Though you don’t feel the same,
You can’t help who you fall in love with,
It's not a pick and choose game,

If I could tell you one final thing,
I wouldn't know what to say...
I have so many things to talk about,
But my life has just decayed.

I would tell you that I loved you,
Not that you would care,
So I would kiss your cheek and walk away,
And that would be my dare.

I can't keep going on like this,
My pain is just too much,
I would curl up in the corner,
Unmoving. Losing my sense of touch.

I'd let depression pull me under,
Like the sea with tidal waves,
Or hurt myself dramatically,
And join some other slaves.

I will do anything you ask of me,
Even apply a shining blade,
Let the crimson blood ooze down my neck,
My life isn't worth the save.

I would die for you my lover,
But only when you know,
I’ve never stopped loving you,
Since all those years ago...
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
Room after room, I hunt the house through We inhabit together. Heart, fear nothing, for, heart, thou shalt find her, Next time, herself!—not the trouble behind her Left in the curtain, the couch's perfume! As she brushed it, the cornice-wreath blossomed anew,— Yon looking-glass gleamed at the wave of her feather. Yet the day wears, And door succeeds door; I try the fresh fortune— Range the wide house from the wing to the centre. Still the same chance! she goes out as I enter. Spend my whole day in the quest,—who cares? But 'tis twilight, you see,—with such suites to explore, Such closets to search, such alcoves to importune! -
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
Today as I went home,
even if I'm with my friends, I feel so alone
thinking of you made me feel so blue,
for you love her and I'm in love with you

this heartache makes me want to cry
but instead of tears, I express it with a sigh
for I don't want them to see
that I'm crying, because I'm falling for you badly

"it's just a little crush" that's what I say
but it's making a big hole, when I see you everyday
for when I follow your stare, it lead to her
and sometimes, I feel like tears are going to make my vision blur

I know it's pathetic, but when you talk to me
I feel so pleased and happy
but still, I know that you're not going to love me
cause, your heart belongs to her completely

you're just a fantasy
and you'll never love me in reality
I know that someday, you're just going to be a memory,
that I will remember when I'm lonely

but, someday is not yet today
it still is far, far away
but, I wish you'll notice anyway,
that my heart is breaking
and even though I'm smiling
just look in my eyes
and you'll see that I'm dying
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
You make me feel so real
I lay awake at night thinking of you
I close my eyes and see
Only you
Do you realize what you do to me?
Why can you not understand me?
I know you like me, but why baby why
What should I do?
Listening to my heart, but it does not
know what to do
Listening to my head, but my head is too jumbled up
I like you, I do, and I need you,
But how long, tell me how long will it last?
Will we ever be friends when it is all over?
I never know when you pretend, do you
Really like me?
When it is over, will we still be forever?
Or never be close ever?
Hannah Osondu Dec 2013
You give to me hope
And help me to cope
When life pulls me down
You bring me around

You teach me to care
And help me to share
You make me honest
With kindness the best

From you I learned love
With grace from above
It's for you I live
And I want to give

You are the reason
That fills each season
When I hear love I think of you
You are my world and best friend too

I love you because you are so kind, thoughtful and caring
I love you because you are so pleasant, lovely and sharing

You made me the man I am
Thank you

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