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428 · Jun 2013
Lost In a phase
Hannah Douglas Jun 2013
Lost in a phase...
Im lost in my own selfish thoughts
All leading to my desired resort
Plans straghities my convient ways
Is this just another phase?
I want to harm my body feel the pain! Embrace it hannah live life in vain
Love ill no longer feel again
DEATH DEATH DEATH
Chanting away all theses attempts fail each day
such an idiot! why do you want yo die? why do you wish to bit farewell?
dont worry youll just lock me up in my ******* cell! my hospital hell...
ill just lay here and watch myself decay can i have your attention before i sit in my pit-full messed up mind
Id like to say i love you all x
i sit here and wonder... is this what i want? to leave my family in frequent grief? just for my own sacrid  relief...
Hannah Douglas Jun 2013
I don't know what you saw about death But you always wanted it
I came to see you in the chamber of rest
I walked in the room and saw was your fore head and part of your hair at that point I could not breath.
Please tell me this isn't real, let it be a mistake.. It can't be my Rachel!
I Walked further in, it's silent I'm silent your silent.
I looked at you I thought so this is what death looks like. It's nothingness
You were decomposing and I hated you looking like that, I hate death and what it dose.
I hated that you couldn't look at me, you didn't smile, you didn't speak you didn't ask for a hug, All you did was be Dead...
I held your hand I wanted to speak but I couldn't I really just wanted to say I LOVE YOU!
I didn't get much time and I was told I had to leave I felt heavy agony
I didn't want to leave! I don't want to leave my sister I don't want to leave her alone I don't want to abandon her I want to see her wake up I want to be with her forever I want us to be us.. I want to hold her hand and make it warm.
I hope you happy now this is what you wanted right?
And I know you will never the person how laughs and sings the funny cheeky girl I remember but in my heart you will always be my twin!

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