my stomach is filled with envy;
i don't miss you
i miss myself
i miss myself & who i was with you
i can't ever re-create that happiness on my own
and i am not envious of her,
but i am envious of how happy she is
and i am envious of how happy you are
i am filled with envy over that happiness
i can not re-create it
i can not have it
i can not have it ever again
i can not let myself get attached or involved in a relationship ever again
the pain has lasted longer than the happiness did
i can not afford to do this ever again to myself
i can not afford
-h.l.b. // i can't let go, i can't give in // april 11th, 2015