i'm not here anymore
sparkling tears falling
you always look so beautiful when you cry
but now the eyes that are gazing into mine are empty

i hate to say that we're the same
we're only compatible when i'm alright
you love to see me smile
when i'm being a doll, the world is ours

our love is forever, u said
but i have seen it leave over and over
and the hatred castle u built in my mind
is here to stay

i wish i could tell you
that i love you
again and again
i refuse

i have died so many times
thoughts erased
head floating in the air

i have died so many times
skin stripped
i can't feel the wind

i have died so many times
no tears would flow
when i grieve my death

i have died so many times
yet i am still breathing

I can’t articulate the profound bleakness
Even companies of my own seems ghastly
The tip of my tongue burns when I uttered it
and I conceeded after I confide
just to stop the noise

The heat from beneath travels in seconds
anchors to my tongue refusing my notion
seconds are in a distinct realm
alas, everything feels infinite

my heart bleeds the same time it loves
tell me please
if i give it all, then is there any for me?
what I'm asking is honesty

dazed, I shut the door I didn't intend to
hazy mist can't tell why I'm running
or was I just hiding?
in need of something familiar, my solitary

are you giving me the reasons to leave
or am I looking too close for trouble
when I have too much in my hands
and you said it's ok to comprehend

if I had to turn once more from the start
I'll be ******
as I cursed these labyrinth in my heart
to never be unslain, hopefully not again

Bare feet wanting to bury in the sand and ocean foam
but relentlessly feeling the ice cold marble in an endless room
Somber night glooms over even in daytime like the sun never rises from the east
and every morning feels like a recurring dream to reach for the stars and lay with the clouds
As if either the sea or the sky that owns my tranquility

you don't know how lovely you are
yet it's radiating out of your soul
like when the sun rises up and you could feel the warmth
and your feet touched with soft sand at the beach

you don't know how lovely you are
cause you clouded your eyes with dark storm
and shutting it just before the fire could bring the warmth

yet i could never forget how lovely you are
even when your eyes drowning in ocean
or when it sparks with bolted lightning

or forget how you could make me feel so angelic
even when sins love to chase over us
and hell grazes my skin