Everyone knows that we’re racist
Everyone expects us to hate
But what they expect of us more
Is that we clean our plates.

My voice comes out in twos and threes
I see your face in leaves on trees
Eyes behind me I can't recognize
Since that night I tell no lies

Days and nights to swallow pills
A silent love song that slowly kills
With shaking knees I feel the shame
For anything wrong, I am to blame

Your head on mine, my nerves on fire
Clothed in shadows, I walk the wire
Beginner's luck, I am a klutz
Something better than painted-on cuts

Small-town feast, we tread the outskirts
I feel privileged to be the first
Pink and green and brown, our eyes
I hate it most when we exchange goodbyes

Streetlights click off one by one
The fog departs
Misty morning chills me
I can look straight at the sun

Dewdrops scatter from my windshield
The **** crows five times
I stretch my arms, touch the sunrise
The day begins

Unanswered questions
A poet in defeat
Once quick-running rivers
Silenced in a beat

Vain pride holds me back
From telling you how I feel
Acid fear and a lack of strength
Another night will steal

My eyes, depths which you've plunged
Hold secrets, this is true
Other men implore, bang on the doors
But I see only you

The pain of a double edged sword
Is lessened, the drip of blood is slow
Sapient man tells me I'm being controlled
Up until then, I hadn't known

Maybe it's been too long to imagine
Maybe it's been too long to keep dying
All the same I think it's wrong
Maybe that's just the broken strings I'm tying

I want to bad to look back
To live in that time again
Fifteen years will never be enough
Life pulls me along so fast

A clear voice in my head reminds me
There's not much left besides you
I listened then in darkness
I listen now in fluorescent light

I closed my eyes, waiting for you
That lovely summer of my demise
Though my life was crumbling
Still I was happy next to you

Winter now, I seldom see the stars
I crane my neck in search of solace
I convince myself I'm done as well
To fall asleep for once would be nice

You awoke at my violent shudders
Held me tight as I tried to sleep
What I thought was love glued me back together
Helped me up from my knees

Hopeless, still in love, I find
Only another man in love with another
Hard as I try, I fell for him too
Will this curse never end?

Take me back where its dark as pitch
The stars outshine the city
Take me so far into the woods
So far that I'll never get out

The harpie crows
As I settle my toes
'Neath the bleeding suicide tree

I look left and right
As packs of dogs race by
The harpie begins tearing leaves

I wait for the tears to stop
I wait for the blood to clot
All this coming from the suicide tree

Loneliness and fear
This is what brought me here
Slumped beneath the suicide tree

Again I search
For the sign of a first
Light, here in this life's debris

Blinded like I,
A man puts his hand in mine
And leads me away from the suicide tree

Unexpected as ever
I'm light as a feather
As he leads me away from the loss of me

Still I can't help but guess
That this isn't the best
And on weeps the suicide tree

I feel the steady hum
Of my blood against my veins
As my mind travels
To places of love & illicit affairs

Heavy breath and pleasure
My mind tempts my senses
I feel so bound
I wish I'd never made promises

Anonymity and biology tease me
I long for sleepless nights
I yearn for your anatomy
But do I want the shame?