a wake up in the morning, your the first thing I think about. you keep me in touch with the world. in a matter of a minute am on Facebook , snap chat, twitter, instagram and kik . you can tell what my friends are doing where there at what there thinking. in the last ten years the internet has exploded everybody uses it. what would I do if I didn't have this in my life . what if the internet was never invented? would I so close to my friends? would everybody still write letters? all the questions that I  think about because of technology.

The world is cold
Crack I stepped on a leaf
Why cant it  be warm

you told me at a young age you would be there for me, love me. you lied you choose women over me, you wish you never had me. I remember  coming home from school to find you not there, you were at the bar you knew you could lose me did you care no the only thing that would make you happy is *** and captain Morgan.
you got your license suspend for too many OWI's  and you were out driving to some more beer and I see the lights flashing you said god fucken damit you told me to put my finger down throat and throw up I didn't understand at the why.you told the cop you were taking me to the hospital you lied.
you were a very Dysfunctional dad you had so many problems why didn't you just go to the doctor.
I remember you weren't your self that day sadder then usual later night you had scared me to death I was only six why would you put a gun up to you head and try to commit suicide.
I remember how strong you were ever time you  lost your chew you would go in to shock in beat me. you always thought I Stoll from you. I could go on and about all the other ******* up things you did but am not going to waste my time on a dead beat dad like you.
the only thing good I learned from is never to fall in love with a man like you.

I see you smile and act like everything is ok. you told me didn't like her you would never date her you lied. what was that ok since I was a away getting help. I wouldn't need to go to treatment if I would of never met you. you made me this way.

You said you would always be there for me.
You said  you loved me and would never let anybody hurt me.
You were suppose to protect me.
You're the one I got the bruises from.
The tears came from you.
To act like everything  okay,
You would buy me some expensive thing I didn't need.
I NEEDED LOVE NOT NEGLECT .
I needed a father.
We only had a each other.
You were usually drunk.
You didn't remember half the time what you were doing to me.
I was suppose to be your little girl.

I smell you
I smoke you
you make all the pain and suffering go away
I need you
I want  you
but I cant have
one year clean