words tumble out of my mouth
landing in a disarray
leaving you to piece them together

you don't mind that i talk to much
because you still make me nervous
you just laugh
and try to make sense of me

given the chance to have you back,
i wouldn't do it.
not even if you paid me.

was i just imagining it when you said you liked me?
and that you had no intentions of going anywhere.
did i make all of that up in my head?
i'm beggining to feel as though i did.

you said you were in it for the long haul
then,
two weeks later,
you crumble.

telling me that i can't be friends with my best friend...
if i want this to work,
and that wasn't about to happen.

so it ended just like that,
nothing more nothing less,
just a bad case of jealousy,
nothing more nothing less.

every time i look at you my spine tingles
i shouldn't want you
but i do.

i wish that you were mine
but you wouldn't stay faithful.

you're everything that i want
but you can't offer me the most important thing
it's killing me.

i want to reach out
to grasp you
but always
you slip away.

I want to be treated with kindness
and respect,
like the lady that I am.

You should take me out on dates,
and show me off to your friends,
I want you to crave my attention
and worship the ground I walk on.

Loving every inch of my body,
be ecstatic when I give you
control.

I want you to love me
and treat me like a goddess,
and do nice things for me
just because.