you're new,
i'm not sure what to think.

you make my mind go crazy,
i can't stop thinking
about you.

you tell me i'm beautiful,
when no one else does,
you think i'm wonderful,
even when i don't agree.

you intrigue me,
i want to know you,
your thoughts,
feelings,
and all about your life.

share your secrets with me,
i swear
i wont tell a soul.

get to know me.

you left,
and now i'm alone.

they say, there's someone else out there for me,
but i don't want anyone else.

they say, i'm beautiful and i can have any man that i want,
but here's  the thing,
i don't want anyone but you.

come back to me,
please, im begging you,
come back.

i try to scream,
but nothing comes out.

i try to cry quietly,
as not to wake anyone,
but loud
heaving
sobs come out.

i try to mask my pain,
but sometimes that mask,
that guard,
it falls down,
weak from standing strong all the time.

people think i cant be harmed,
im a strong woman,
but im not...
i let them keep thinking that though.

i dont like people to know me,
my emotions,
they are for me,
and you,
but you left.

so now,
my emotions are not allowed to roam free,
they are caged and trapped,
not allowed to move,
unless everyone is asleep.

thats when i try and scream,
and rein them in,
but i make no noise,
and they come flooding out
in the form of sobs and anger.

they like the night...

i want you to hold me,
but you dont want to hold me.

i dont want you to love me,
but you do anyways.

its never right,
theres always something
on the back of your mind,
never fully at ease.

i love you,
and you love me back....

you stab slowly and carefully,
trying not to put me in pain.

the whole time,
you repeat,
"i love you"
over and over.

you let me hug you,
kiss you, and cry on your shoulder,
even though im bleeding all over you.

when you pulled out the knife it was quick,
an attempt at being painless,
but it hurt,
even more than when it was going in.

when you left,
soaked in my blood and sadness,
you took a piece of me.

you gouged me,
ripped my limbs apart,
and told me you loved me,
and then you left.

you promised me you always would,
and with that,
you took another limb.

when you walked out,
leaving me there crying,
unable to move,
you finally took my soul,
all that i had to offer.

now i am nothing,
i try to survive,
but im slowly bleeding out on the floor,
begging for help,
begging for you to come back,
to give me my limbs and soul,
to let me breathe freely,
but we both know
that will never happen.

so i must wait,
for another man to come along,
with spare parts,
whom will fix me,
but the pieces will never fit quite right,
not like the originals.