the day they worshipped the sun god
the day i worship you.

please hold my hand
while we cross the street
please take my jacket
because you’re too cold
you’ve been waiting a while
i’m here to hold your hand

i’m still suffering from withdrawals.

lost in your eyes
i find myself confused on what to do
i caught a glimpse of you,
now im spiralling into demise.

i’m reminded
every tree, flower, bug
every season
every weather condition
you’ve mapped a way
so deep into my head
and i couldn’t even begin
to try to forget.

i couldnt hold myself back,
i searched to meet your eyes
i just wanted you to know.

if they asked me about you
on a normal day
i’d tell them
we had a good run
that it was a mutual agreement
we were better apart

if they slipped me a blunt
and asked me again?
i’d tell them
that i regret never being
the man you wanted
that i ruined
the purest love
id ever found

id tell them,
it was always you,
it always has been,
it always will be.

even if we can’t be.

i miss you,
please don’t reach out.
i saw the sunset
and thought of you
please don’t reach out.
i found an old hoodie of yours
nestled in the back of my closet
please dont reach out.
you’re the only consistent thought
lurking around in my mind
please don’t reach out.
you’re all i think about.
please don’t reach out.
please don’t reach out.
please don’t reach out.

who are you now?
i ask the once familiar
now strange silhouette
time has forced us
to grow and change
who are you now?
what has changed?

do you long for him
like you longed for me?
is he who you dream of?
or wake up thinking about?
it still makes my skin crawl
and my stomach weak
my heart still hurts
why? it’s been two years.