i've always rushed underneath the scalding water
in hopes of it melting me away
but the only thing it really does
is muffle my cries of confusion and fear
i wish i could vanish
like the vapors in the steaming room
silently and slowly
disappear

good luck trying to figure me out
i am a labyrinth of lies.
"yes i'm doing fine"and "everything is good"
as i stare into the eyes of every person
asking of my well-being
i lie; for reasons i wish i knew
in the back of my mind, i am screaming for help
for someone to aide me
to understand me
but the devil holds my tongue and i remain silent
maybe someday the words will come
maybe someday ill be okay.

you gave me flowers before you left.
they sit on my window sill,
and face towards our favorite place to sit
they are getting too dry, but i promise i'm
trying my best to keep them alive
just as i'm trying my best to keep us alive.
1,000 miles from you
all i can do is hope to see you soon
before you let us wilt
like the flowers you gave me before you left

like the night you come,
come to me like the sea comes
never to stay, yet
destined to return
dark and dangerous
i watch, i wait
always my love
the sea you are to me