You know that old line?
"it's not you, it's me"
that came to mind today
as I thought of your arm around my shoulder
your fingers in my soaking wet hair
You have the coldest hot tub I've ever been in by the way.
Guess it makes since
Anyways
You knew I'd liked you since I met you
then you met that wonderful girl whom which I love too,
and I stood there

I was there.

I have always been there.

and I listened to you carefully
every word, every breath
every
Silent Pause.
Where I could hear the gears whirring in your head
trying to make sense of your relationship
And I though to myself, I pity you

So I listened and ignored everything I wanted
You know why?
because for some Ungodly reason
all I wanted was your attention.
That's all.
And you have always had mine.
100%
And then she left you and I was there,
still
listening
patiently
Till you put your arm around me
in that chair
so close
till you held on to me.

But now i know what I really am to you
an outlet for your pain, happiness, sorrow, and affection.
it wasn't even because you wanted to be close to me.

It was your own petty needs.

It was never because you wanted me.