Maybe they make the Internet quick
so that you can get off it faster,
and back to your real world.

People tell you to forgive others.
To let them go
so that you can move on.
But in the process of doing that,
sometimes you forget
to forgive yourself.

You promised me protection,
promised me the world
right at my fingertips.

You promised me hardship,
but nothing we couldn't go through
together.

You promised me humor,
said we'd somehow find it
in this cynical world.

You promised me hope,
said we'd beat the world
at it's own game.

Just the two of us,
you promised.
Just us against the universe,
because we could do anything
with just the two of us.

You promised me all this
before I even left your womb.
You promised me all this
before you even knew who to love.
You promised me all this
so that you could believe it yourself.
You promised me all this
so that I can do the same
when you become too old and frail,
too weak to hold up your end.
You promised me all this
so that I can help you
the way you once did.

And I promise,
I will.

I'm trying...
Trying to chip away
All the layers of regret, of shame, of dirt
All the layers of hurt.

From what's inside
But all I've got is a broken hammer,
Encased around a ceramic heart
That comes only in broken parts.

Can't you see?
I'm trying...
Trying to get to me
Won't you see?

How can you stand there
Asking for help
Asking for me to find your salvation, your shady tree
When I can't even find me.

Can't you see?
I'm throwing out the rules
I'm done helping, I've given enough
After all,
I gave myself up.

Everybody tells me to grow up.

But nobody tells me why.

You'd think
that after fifteen years
of living in this world
that I'd get used to it.

I'm not.

Well you could sit there in the dark,
curl up with nothing but a knife
cutting through your back with a mark.
Waiting for the wound to end your life.

So you wait for a stormy day
to wash off all your pain.
In these graves are where you lay.
You've got caught up in all these chains.

So here is where you've been waiting
for the world to just stop spinning.
Here is where you've been hating.
Death around the corner, grinning.

Can you hear the silence?
Can you see their sneers?
Here is where you lost your balance,
here is where you found your fears.