Lock eyes,
My heart
                  Stops
Inside my chest
There is a  t u g g i n g  towards you
You smirk, sending my heart flying
Strawberry Moon Fields
Where we met
Where we fell in love
Where I'll wish I was the rest of my restless teenage days
cold rain, warm hands. You eyes all over me.
Strawberry Moon Fields
Where we met, where you fell in love
Where we wished we were that cold Sunday
Begging and crying
My tears turned hot with the water
Dripping, pedal to pedal
Eyelashes drenched
Heart broken
Hands shaking as I picked up my phone
Chest emptied by wholesome words.
Beautiful harmful words.

Your words.

I hate you
I mean I love you
I mean.. I'm not sure
Your pain is my pain
My pain is nothing to you
I'm ******* breaking
And so are you
If we were closer
If we were older
I'd be yours
You'd be mine
And again, we'd be whole
I would break your addictions
You'd be my new addiction
I love you I love you
I need you
I wish you loved me
Needed me
The way I love and need you
Why can't you take a chance? Exchange your pain for love again?
For me again.
Just to feel, just to know
No matter what I do
I'll always love you.

One day we fell in love
Or so I thought
Then you ****** up
Blue eyes shone so bright
Then they dimmed
You had kissed me
Over and over
We were okay
I was okay
Then you went too far
And I screamed
I told you
Begged you
Pushed you away
But you never left
Leaving me broken
Bleeding
Dreams keep me down
And **** lifts me up
You let me down
But I'm fighting my way back up
And one day, I'll be so high
Without ****
I'll lift myself off the ground
Look down on you and be able to smile
Since that Easter Monday
When everything came crumbling down
And I looked up
And saw you for who you really are
A coward
Who took advantage of me
That Easter Monday.