You were always there for me.
Then you walked away.
I cried myself to sleep, but never during the day.

I was always sure to smile, to keep my demons at bay.
But every night they haunted me when they came out to play.

So now the days pass slow and the nights rage on.

Every night a war.

I always pray for dawn.

He came.
He saw.
He conqured.

And my feelings betrayed my gut.

My heart betrayed my mind.
And my common sense locked its shutters shut.

My warning center closed up business.
Hung up a sign that said "Out of luck".

My stop go stystem simply said "go"
Like an accelorator was stuck.

And the result of such betrayals?

My heart is now muck.

I wish I could pinpoint when my world began to change,
When the cracks led to crumbles.
When the seas became deranged.

When did my heroes fall and what led to their defeat?
Why am I left with no truth at all, expect the ten toes on my feet?

I wish I could remember now,

                                                      all three wishes to go back.

Because these days here are darkened
A haunted prey awaiting attack.

Why couldn't the black and white last and when did this confusion set in?

I'm standing nauseated
Pondering cloudy grey sin

I want to drown in my sorrows, yet chase them to their origins too.
I must find why they showed up, roughly demoting my rainbow hue.

I want my heroes to come back. I yearn my simpler days.
When mom and dad could do no wrong

But those memories seem such a haze.

Really trying to remember, giving my hardest to peer back.
It saddens me to realize,
An abundance of those years I lack.

My parents weren't my heroes for long. I soon admired other things.

At a young age I had to find out,

Invincible doesn't apply to human beings.

And now I'm left in the cold and I really can't remember,
If it was warmer when I was innocent,

or if I've always experienced this weather

Spin that web of lies you have
Always quick to keep yourself sane

And build that wall high up to the sky
A sure way to keep out the pain

But when the walls come down to the ground
and a cracked brick breaks your leg

Don't call upon me or ring at my phone
I won't come even if you beg

And I won't pay your bills or be a slave to your thrills
I'm not that shell of that egg

Because I won't be around
You won't see me frown

I'm immune to you and your plague.

Down the sidewalk
The feet’s pitter and patter
Fast and faster
Nobody knows what's the matter

Down the sidewalk
Cracks are creaking and cracking
Holes are being formed
People realize what they're lacking

Down the sidewalk
The sun is sailing and setting
Darkness is seeping in
The lack of light is rather upsetting

Down the sidewalk
The world is failing and ending
But I’m sitting in the dark
Sitting and pretending.

Down the sidewalk
The world is silent and still.
You've run away
Taking the Sun and all my fill.

Another day, another night
Spent in the library,
hidden out of sight

I thought I'd study hard
All my math equations
But then you walked in
You're your own sensation

And now I can't focus
The numbers seem to blur
The only equation I see
Is the one of you and her

But it doesn't add up
I know it isn't correct
There's a major number missing
And it's quite a big defect

What could she have
That I so clearly lack
I can't even begin to describe
This world-crushing panic attack

Then you sit down
Right beside me
And I'm still trying to figure out
Why your acting so blindly

This equation won't balance out
This equation is wrong
This equation needs some subtraction
This equation is too long.

This equation could be perfect.
This equation could be grand.
But she's still at your side.
And this equation is ******.

To the boy in the library
I see you every night
With your grey jacket and chemistry book
You're always quite a sight

Did you know I choose my table
Just carefuly so?
I sit facing the way you come in
So I'm always in the know.

The way you walk in
The way your hips just flow
And the way you open your chemistry book
So sure of what you already know

To the boy in the library
We have the same books
Which means the same classes
I think that'll be my hook.

That'll be what I bring up
When I see you next
Because I'm sure I'll have the courage then
And I won't be so perplexed

It'll be what I say
When I find the words
To string together
To come out in herds

It'll be what's said
When I finally get up
From my table
To ask you what's up

It'll be the start of our story
A cloud of romance
It'll be what we whisper
During our wedding dance

It'll be what's told
To our little kings and queens
It'll be our anecdote
When our aniversary hits seventeen

At least that's what it will be
When I get the words right
When I say them with a smile
Some other lucky night

Until then though,
I'll choose my seat just so
In the basement of the library
with the dim lighting glow.