You're radiant in my eyes
Blue skies
Have nothing on you
You're feeling lonely
I am too
We could be feeling lonely together
In this gloomy weather
Fall asleep in bed
Listening to music together wishing we were dead
And face each other and smile
At least we have each other for a while
The only happiness I can feel
But it's okay, that's a friendship sealed
Everything else just makes me feel ill
Your presence  makes me feel healed

Your scent, your touch, your warmth
Olfactory landmarks of you become intangible and out of sight
Your voice, your breath, so on and so forth
No more words to cause my emotions to ignite
There is no getting used to of your absence
And I won't stay oblivious to my wrathful thoughts
Because the memories say more than the angry words I speak and think in silence

You remind me of the days where I felt pain
You were in the alcohol running through my veins
The tears running down my face
My breath unstable in a fast pace
You remind me of the days where I felt happiness
Sharing warmth between our finger tips
Tasting every kiss from your lips
You remind of those days where I felt loneliness
My head was always a mess
Staying in bed reading poems written about you
Wishing I was laying next you, but you never had a clue

It all started with those late night invitations
Sometimes I like to think hurting me was not your intentions
Indecisive little minds, we got our tongue tied
Some day I will put the bad memories aside
He had that smile, the one that gets me shy
He never meant to act like the bad guy
Our kisses became my favorite little secret
I think it is okay, they turned me into an obscure poet
You will never have a clue
But I still enjoy writing poems about you
It is the way your gentle kisses touch my lips so soft and delicate
They keep me up all night but I do not mind if it gets a little late
As long as I am with you, your presence is what I appreciate
And this poem I dedicate
To the one who I believe to be my soul mate
Maybe you can relate?
Because baby, you were worth the wait
Now that you are mine, it is our future that I like to anticipate
Every second that I spend with you makes me feel so fortunate
I love how we have something meaningful
Because I really like you and I meant it all
That I will always be here for you even when you fall
I will give you my heart and soul
Now that we are together
My love for you will go on forever

Yesterday everyone missed me
Today a few stayed and believed
Tomorrow no one will care to see
What I have become is nothing they want
I’m tired of being so blunt
They will never listen either way
My dreams are nothing but clouds of emptiness
In their eyes, I am hopeless
I don't blame them
I too, believe I have a problem
Days are nicer when I stay home
Nights are better when I am alone
But thoughts are worse when I am lonesome
And dreams are nicer when I am sharing them with someone
Talking is not fun, it’s always baffling
Laughing is starting to get a little tiring
Sleeping sometimes fails to keep my sanity
Reading affects my reality
Nothing is as easy as I like it to be

Lost myself in the eyes of a stranger
Saw a reflection of a girl I once knew
Always falling into a misadventure
Confused, never knew what to do
He whispered and said "this was the old you and I'm glad I found her"

i know it’s not okay to be sad

but you don’t know anything about my past

you think i don’t miss the great times i've had?

great things are temporary, good things never last

don’t force me to talk, it’s bad enough already

it’s not easy to be happy

when those memories start creeping back in your head

you suddenly forget what happiness feels like… you just feel dead

and all you want to do is stay in bed

When they touch her she starts to shiver 
Then she goes home and cries enough to make her palms a river 

It used to please her 
she never felt used 
It was mutual and they both felt amused 
Now she rejects any type of affection 
Because she thinks it's dangerous and refuses any attention 

How can one night inflict so much pain to human being?
He was a stranger and a predator 
Sometimes she wonders if it's a blessing
Or maybe 
A curse that she doesn't remember that night 
But when she falls asleep and begins to dream
It haunts her and she begins to scream
She hears his gasps and feels the grasps 

This is why she has trouble sleeping during the night 
Looks for other ways to distract her mind 
But sometimes when she seeks for comfort her friends seem out of sight
Maybe it's just her conscience but she always feels lonely during midnight 

You can hear the damage in her voice 
She used to laugh, she used to smile 
You can barely hear her when she speaks and it shows
That she no longer enjoys being around others, she only stays for a while...

When I met you
Something came out of the blue
I suddenly realized I was a romantic
And that made me a bit uneasy and frantic
This is not easy and I am scared
What if I lose everything we once shared?
Help me feel wanted and convince me that this love will not hurt
I have fallen slowly but surely into your majestic ways
Successfully wooing me throughout the winter days
I swoon from your manners
Those rosy cheeks are from my desires
Of us becoming one
You said "love is serious, but I can make it fun"
So I treasure every momentum of our sweaty bodies
Becoming secrets that will never make it into stories
Frankly I am becoming addicted to your mind, body, and soul
You're all I think of even when the days are dull
And I am not looking for a fairy tale
For that is for those who seek love so frail
I want reality where my heart can find hospitality
And we can both rest our thoughts in tranquility

The trees are dancing with the wind
Oh how long has it been
Since I've seen you grin
Remember sitting near the dancing trees
We would sigh but still admire the breeze

Oh how long has it been since we've been friends
So tell me, why is it so difficult to make amends
When everything else becomes too easy to let it end

The trees aren't dancing anymore, what a shame
The breeze has ceased to exist, nothing is the same
But somehow I manage to feel unchanged
And I perceive myself as being left behind

Remember showing me that song about the girl who felt deranged
I went home and cried because it felt like that was me
I have become a time out of mind
Just a distant memory

But I am ready to understand now, the trees are dead now
And by nature, it is something I should allow
There is no more time to listen to your point of views
Because everything in this universe goes through changes, people change, you've changed

I miss the dancing trees, the nostalgic breeze, but mostly, I miss you
And it is time to admit that I have become estranged

everything is moving too fast
i don’t think i can keep up
I’m falling behind
I’m falling apart

I’m no longer part of their lives
I’m no longer a part of their dreams
and it seems to me
that i’ll never find the happiness that they finally found
without me

i thought i was getting better
except everything seems so much bitter

I wonder if there’s an end to this mess
they say it’s all in my head
so why can’t it just go away

i tried so many things
nothing seems to work for me

and my friends, they leave
but i stay here
living in fear

i don’t know where here is
but it’s a place i don’t want to be
i hope there's a way out that will lead me to happiness
until now, my only wish is to be set free

Full moon, hearts swoons, and life's despairs
I got a handful of decisions I do for dares
The demons got their bets on my worst
Played with fire and then laughed at the silly outburst
I wasn't aware that I would soon be thrown into my own flame
I've been criticized and put into shame
But I have a little advice to give
We've all failed ourselves and others at one point, that's the life we live
And if you can't stay and forgive, go ahead and walk away
My heart can handle just one more tear