oh dear
   what a wonderful
writing
you just wrote

i would be lying
if i kept my mouth shut

      but how could i ever ever ever?

you you you
invading my dreams

in dreams of rows of
four four four or more

    your presence is
un and welcomed
  

    and i wonder how it is
with you



i only ever see you in my dreams anymore

god god god i
really
no really
i DON'T care

what you have to say with that
stupid mouth of yours
just stop
stop
STOP
being a five year old
and learn some tact
  and humanity for
christ's sake

i'm sick to death of you and your mind and EVERYTHING
about you

just please please

SHUT UP

"I like the word, toggle, actually."

something happened

*and then again
   and again


but it is all just an unfocused merge of subconscious creations now


but it did go something like this




--
oh the
wind and the trees

and the cuts on my knees

..and the running away from whatever it is behind me

away
and again
and a jump and then
i fall

and as i look up, i see me

yes it's me

  and i smile at myself and offer a hand up
'cos there's really nothing to be scared of
  

it's just  **me